attitude of gratitude
Ok, I don't know how many of you have been listing to me lately but I have been VERY VERY VERY frustrated with my progress (or lack there of) and have had such a negative attitude.
I have been on a stall since Jan 19th and have just felt horrible about myself and lately I have been getting hostile about WLS in general. 
I don't know what happened but today something just went off in my mind and it gave me a new perspective. 
I used to such a SLAVE to hunger and food. Eating used to be what I leaned on for support. It used to occupy my mind. When someone around me was eating something yummy, I would have an UNCONTROLABLE urge to also have some. Since my WLS I have not felt true hunger. I can see someone eating something and not feel like if I don't get any then that is a punishment.
It used to amaze me when people were offered food (like cake, pizza, chocolate, etc) and say "no thank you" and pass on the opportunity to eat. I could not even fathom the thought.
I can now say that I don't HAVE THE NEED to eat like I did before. Slowly, food is losing its grip on me and I am SO THANKFUL. Even if I lose slow, even if I plateau, this surgery has set me free from an addiction I had.
I am sure that I will struggle still with making good food choices, as I already have had things that weren't the best choice, but everyone does. I am just so grateful that food no longer controls me mentally like it used to. And for me that is such a blessing, that it makes me not so concerned with my slow loss and plateau.
I hope this makes sense 
-Mary
I have been on a stall since Jan 19th and have just felt horrible about myself and lately I have been getting hostile about WLS in general.
I don't know what happened but today something just went off in my mind and it gave me a new perspective.
I used to such a SLAVE to hunger and food. Eating used to be what I leaned on for support. It used to occupy my mind. When someone around me was eating something yummy, I would have an UNCONTROLABLE urge to also have some. Since my WLS I have not felt true hunger. I can see someone eating something and not feel like if I don't get any then that is a punishment.
It used to amaze me when people were offered food (like cake, pizza, chocolate, etc) and say "no thank you" and pass on the opportunity to eat. I could not even fathom the thought.
I can now say that I don't HAVE THE NEED to eat like I did before. Slowly, food is losing its grip on me and I am SO THANKFUL. Even if I lose slow, even if I plateau, this surgery has set me free from an addiction I had.
I am sure that I will struggle still with making good food choices, as I already have had things that weren't the best choice, but everyone does. I am just so grateful that food no longer controls me mentally like it used to. And for me that is such a blessing, that it makes me not so concerned with my slow loss and plateau.
I hope this makes sense
-Mary 
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