tough weekend!

Hi all- I had a real deja vu weekend. My eating was ok during the day on Saturday, but on the way home from a gathering my daughter and I went grocery shopping. I made the mistake of buying cheese doodles (one of my great downfalls pre-op) supposedly for my daughter - who was I kidding! I had some Sat. night and then all day Sunday I found myself drawn to the bag - and I found I don't dump on them - CRAP! My intake on Sunday consisted mainly of cheese doodles all day. It was gross and by the end of the day I just had this feeling of dread - am I going to go back to my old habits?!? My friend who had the surgery a year ago pointed out that pre-surg I would have eaten the entire bag (true) and I didn't yesterday, and I still would have eaten three meals and probably moved onto another snack food to boot (also true), but it really scared me as this is the first time I have felt out of control with food since the surgery. Just needed to vent (and fess up). I'm going to try to get myself back on track (and I'm not bringing those into my house again!) Hope everyone had a good (and healthy) weekend. Eileen

Eileen~ Funny you mentioned cheese doodles. I made the family tuna sandwiches last night with cheese doodles. I figured that I could use the protein and eat with the family. Of course mine was on crackers and I skipped the doodles....except for one. I guess the fat girl that stills lives in me took over for a split second. I reached out and grabbed one off my husband's plate. And I did it secretively no less!! While I was chewing it I wanted to spit it out, I was so ticked at myself for eating it. Dawn

Don't be so hard on yourself! We are not perfect and neither is any other human being! Even "naturally thin" people have treats once in a while. I try to plan little treats in so that I don't feel deprived. One of the most healthy eating plans I have been on I think is Weigh****chers and they allow you to have a treat as long as you count it into your weekly "points." It was always hard for me to stop after one cookie or 10 chips pre-op. But now, since we can't really eat unlimited amounts any more, we might just be able to enjoy one of something and "count it in" and then move on. Anyway, this has been my attitude and so far I have been able to really enjoy a treat. Yesterday I was at my daughter's youth symphony concert and they sold baked goods during intermission. I bought a chocolate chip cookie and some decaf coffee and had about half of it. Then I gave the rest to my husband because it was enough (I don't dump, I have found.) Anyway, it was good, but I didn't need the whole thing. I enjoyed the part I ate, and then it was over.