horrific embarassment

Hi, Well, two weeks ago I warned about google and your names. The worst has occurred. A (travel) reporter found my diary on OH as did a very sweet man I was just starting to date. The reporter experience was worse than the man. I have to have confidence that he's going to be a professional about this. The man is a bit freaked and the dialogue has shifted considerably. We'll see where it goes...I know, I know....if he is right/great/meant to be it will be fine but if not, if not, good to know now...I know, I know. It still hurts. Deeply. I also feel completely violated. I am distraught that my my most personal experience was waved in the wind (albeit at my own doing) and upset that I felt the need to remove it from here and reduce the tremendous support and gain I've received from this site. This is my most emotional post op experience yet. Tiffany

Tiffany, I'm sooooo sorry you had to experience this. You have definitely been violated and what we share on our pages are things that most of us probably have never told anyone else, and we sure as hell don't want the whole google nation reading it either. Although we shared it, we weren't aware that our diaries could be broadcast on google on where ever. So it's definitely NOT you're fault whatsoever. Thank you so much for sharing in your earlier posts about google and our names. As for the guy, he could be more supportive, so if it doesn't turn out that way...better you find out about him now than later. He should be proud of you and the fact that you decided to better your health. Hope you feel better about this soon. April

Oh Tiffany, I'm so sorry. That really sucks. But you're right. If it's meant to be...I mean with the guy you are seeing, it will be OK. Many hugs, Ronna

Hi I totally can feel for you. That's why i'm alittle shy about writing on here also. I hardly do updates because at my work other women have had this surgery and they know about this web site and they also come on here i think and are lurkers and will read and make comments. I 'm not embrassed but I don't want people at my work to know personal experiences i have had or think. I write everythign down in a journal. I'm not as shy as I first was on here I think I am sharing more on the message board but not as much on my profile. So i diffently feel what you are going through. Keep your head up. Tammy

My first 2 years on OH my first name was silent lurker was my last. More privacy that way, now I dont care as much. Good luck, Elsa

Tiffany Sorry to hear that happen.......But rememeber your family here can always personal email you if you want.....Take care of yourself. You are women and I know you are strong since you made it through the surgery. Suzan

Tiffany, I am so sorry that you had to go through that trauma. I could not imagine how I would feel if that happened to me and I did not want just anyone knowing my business. I wholeheartedly agree about teh "If it's meant to be..." thing. You are doing so wonderfully. I hate that it embarrassed you. I have a slightly different view (Just me personally) I feel that when I came to this site, that those exact diaries (such as yours) helped me judge what I was going to experience, what direction I would move in and helped me to learn more about the emotional/phyical and mental challenges that would possibly come. In essence a collective "someone" helped save my life. I journal in mine regularly and even recently sent the link out to everyone I know, including the "guy". It's a part of me and if anyone wants to know me, then this is just a part they have to accept. I think that it would be a shame if you let those people get to you because of your page. I have searched mine on google and nothing comes up, I am not sure if that's because I used "Continued moon" as my name or what, it still says Kristie N when I post stuff. Anyway, I was not trying to make light of your feelings just trying to possibly put it into another perspective that may make it slightly easier to know you're helping someone out. Cheers Sister Kristie

Thanks, everyone for your support and words of encouragement. I need to find a comfort level with my profile, I agree that they are key to helping ourselves and others and that's a big part of why I am so detailed in what I write. I'm going to wait awhile, however, and let my full name clear out of the google cache. I do have new pictures and can send anyone the link and passwords. I'm looking at myspace and other ways to get this out there in an anonymous manner. Angels are shining on us, I got the nicest msg from 'him' and we're going out on Friday. Sometimes its really odd how you meet people in life. Have a great week, Tiffany