My first emotional breakdown

Hey guys, Who else can sympathize with me better than my Jan buddies? I had my first true breakdown today. What happened was this. I went to the store with DH and saw a really cute pair of capris. The only size they had was 18 and I figured I would try them on. I have been wearing size 20 for 2 months now and they have gotten quite loose. Also I have lost 30 pounds since I first fit into the 20s. I guess you know what happened. Those capris were so tight I couldn't get them past my KNEES!!! I have never been so disgusted in my life. Why am I loosing weight constantly but my pant size is staying the same? It doesn't make sense. I'm more angry than sad actually. Well the whole ride home I'm very quiet, sipping on my protein water. DH said, "You're really not THAT upset about those pants are you?" "YEAH!! I feel like I am busting my rear end for nothing." "It's only been 3 months, give it time." That is NOT what I wanted to hear. I wanted to hear "even though those pants didn't fit, I can see you are loosing." Now I'm more sad than angry and start to cry like a fool. I feel like I have truly hit a wall though. I KNOW I am doing everything right. I am CERTAIN of it. I am loosing every week!! Yet, I am 100% disgusted with my self at the same time. Thanks for letting me vent. Dawn

Dawn, I can sympathize -- I know how you feel. I, too, am loosing weight steadily, but my clothes sizes are just beginning to go down and even then -- only some things. Do hang in there -- I know you don't want to hear it again -- especially from someone you don't know well. But it HAS only been three months and it WILL eventually come off. That's what I tell myself constantly.

I sympothize with you. I am opposite others and don't see myself as big as I am. I see the weight loss, but I see more than is there. I was surprised lately when I went somewhere and no one noticed I had lost weight. Then I realized that these friends don't see a persons size, it doesn't matter, so they just saw me. Then I got home and saw a pic of myself, I looked like a fat sloB!!! No wonder no one said anything. I hurt to see what I really look like even though I see myself looking better. I just hope someday my body catches up with my mind. Funny, how the mind works.

Hey you! Dont let this get you down. One manufacturer's 18 is anothers 6. Seriously! You're doing fabulous, dont let anyone (including yourself) tell you otherwise. Rather than yell about the scale or a label on the clothes reward yourself for all those calories burned and sit ups executed! You're doing everything just right! You are awesome!!!

Dawn, first of all, congratulate yourself that this was just your 1st emotional breakdown and it's been 3 months already!! Seriously, I bet most of us have had several in that amount of time!! Second, I know how frustrating that situation is (a similar thing happened to me last week), but try to focus on how much you've lost and how incredibly different your before and current pics look. You are very, very much smaller than when you started. And, as Tiffany said, clothes sizes vary so much between manufacturers and designers, stretch v. no-stretch, etc that what you tried on has no bearing on how well you're really doing. Keep your chin up! You're doing awesome (look at your pics if you need a reminder) and just keep doing what you're doing, 'cuz it's working!!! Lisa S.

Tomorrow is my 3 month surgiversary. I am hoping that once DH takes a pic and I post it to my profile that I will be in a better mood about the whole thing. (Common sense tells me that not all sizes are REALLY the same, but the heart wants what it wants and I really wanted to walk out of the store with clothes what were in the "teens".) Dawn

Dawn, I can definitely sympathize with you. My bubble has been burst twice now. I also wear a 20, but they are very loose. 18's are sooo friggin tight. At least my tops are getting looser because those sizes weren't moving either! I thought I was the only one. I always see posts about people being in 14's from 18's and I kept wondering what the hell I was doing wrong. We aren't doing anything wrong. You just have to give it time. When I couldn't fit into those 18's I was bummed for a couple hours, but then it just made me more motivated to keep doing what I'm doing. No one ever said this surgery was supposed to work on our timeline. You're doing great...going to the gym everyday, losing all that weight, eating right. Just keep what you're doing and remember those capris when you need to some motivation! Girl, we WILL overcome one day soon!!! April

He Dawn: I know emotions works in way different modes in women and in men. But let me tell you that I feel sad if you feel sad. Do not get dicouraged!!! I can see that those capris were really in your desire....But let me tell you that if you allow yourself a little bit more time... you will be too skinny for that size. It is a matter of time that we will reach our desires. A slim beautiful body can not be modeled in three months. You have to allow yourself enough time to get there!!! You told me yestarday that you are working out so hard... I guarantee you that it is going to pay you with high profits.....It is just no time for those capris YET. You will be there girl.... I promise you that if you follow up the same path you have been walking (let me ramark walking, not running) you will get your destination. A slim beatiful body is inside you. You just have to work out on it and let time to do its work.... Best Regards Alejandro from Guadalajara Mexico

I'm sorry your husband didn't say what you wanted to hear.....so I'll say it for him instead "Dawn, even though those gosh darn capris didn't fit, I can honestly see through all of your pictures that you posted that you ARE losing both weight and inches. You're looking fabulous" On that note, clothing sizes are the craziest thing ever. For example, I have a pair of size 12 pants from one store (they fit and look great) and yet I have some 16s from Old Navy that I can't even get past my knees, but I have other pants that are size 14 that fit perfectly. What gives??? It's easy to get caught up in all the 'numbers' (lbs lost,clothing sizes, etc). I'm so sorry that you are upset. This moment will soon be a distant memory, and I KNOW you'll soon be posting that you're in a size 10 or so. Until then, keep on keepin' on, and thanks for being such a great motivator and inspiration to all of us on this board.

Dawn Have you tried to take your measurements before going clothes shopping.. Then check the tags for the measurements....Mervyns pants are way to big 20's look like 40's so I got down to a tight 16 but 18 are to loose. The old navy those stinkers must have really skinny models because there 18's are way to tight through the hips....Macy's, Lerners, Chadwick's are okay.....Plus i noticed I use to wear 24w efore surgery now when I buy pants I don't go for the wide sizes any more just regular..Maybe a smaller size but wide might fit......Have you noticed any shoe size difference? Suzan Hang in there..Loooking forward to seeing your 4 month pic...... suzan