Chinese Food Revisited

I have a hard time with this question because - intellectualy - I want to say I did it all for my health and continue doing it (counting calories, mostly) for that reason. However, from the emotional stand point I definately was/am doing it for the pounds lost. Even when folks were saying that I was too thin, looking gaunt and scrawny, I would REALLY take a good hard look in the mirror and actually agree with them. But did that stop me from losing more? Big fat NO! I wanted a certain number and when that was managed, I wanted a lower one. This went on for along time - the ever-changing-goal-making. I finally have come to a point where I am not losing anymore. At least I think I could be done...it's only been two months. If more came off, secretly, I would be excited. Yet my "goal" was to be healthy and never to be shapeless. So I would be becoming exactly what I don't want, just for the satisfaction of the downward-moving scale. This comes, for me, as a result of so many years of failed diet attempts... and regains that were simply monsterous from the sucessful ones. I have a hard time wrapping my mind around the concept of eating to MAINTAIN, since I have NEVER been in this postion before. And heaven forbid I should ever have to eat to GAIN! I'd probably have a nervous breakdown first. I wonder, sometimes, if I have or am exchanging one eating disorder (binge without purge) for another (anorexia, maybe?) I don't think so, but those looking in might. Good food for thought, Jay

That has absolutely been my experience also. One day, a certain food works and the next day or time I eat it, it doesn't. I just can't figure it out! At first I thought maybe I hadn't chewed it well enough or ate too fast (that was shortly after first starting to eat solids again) but ..no. I'm not sure if this was that, or maybe because I nuked it. Not sure. Just keep on keepin' on, I guess! Chele

"Get something Pierced?" BB done! what next?? hmmmmm. I have been feeling drawn back to the piercing shop with naughty ideas in mind. what will YOU pierce after your TT

I have no specific knowledge regarding plastics and HMO vs. PPO--but it has been my experience that working with PPO's has been much easier (than HMO's) in all areas of my healthcare. Good luck to you.

HI I havent submitting my request for plastics yet but my RNY was approved in less than a week thru BCBS PPO. If that helps at all Dawn

I had a bad time with Chinese Food too.... eating the leftovers! It's something I won't do it again. Doesn't it suck that we have to learn the "hard" way. Hope you're feeling okay now. Susan

Carole, I know I shouldn't care but it's a bad habit I picked up along this journey. I got to addicted to the scale for my own good. I'll try to go to weighing once a week. Calvin