what is wrong with me?

ok I have to confess.... I eat whatever I can cause nothing feels good or tastes good. The most I still can eat is 6 bites and I chew really well. Today I did good with mild discomfort by eating B = 6 oz yogart s = 8oz carnation instant breakfast 2% milk dinner = 4 bites rotisserie ckn, 3 long green beans, 3 tablespoons of mashed potatoes and gravy. I work 11p-7a I try to drink about 24/32 oz water, 2 cups of milk, i usually have 3 bites of a payday, and 3 oz of cheese. occasionally I will eat 5 potatoe chips. Yes yes I know!!! Today I weighed in at 147 lbs. Over all I have lost 73 lbs. since October. My pre-op weight was 205, putting me at 58 lbs. (1/23/06) I am in 5/6 jeans, even though to me my gut is hugh. (porker) I may be in 3/4's by May. Everything is falling, I feel I look old (wrinkled) (avoiding posting new pictures), my cheeks are not full, my boobs are totally gone, I still can't find my butt, so even thjese great jeans look stupid. And I am looking for financing for plastic surgery. My hair is falling out like crazy, so I hope a trip to the beauty shop will help saturday. Cause I look in the mirror and still see "her" am I nuts?