Disgust, Despair, and Confusion

Thank-You Hazel

We all have some issues w/ the wrinkles. I noticed "bat wings" this week on my still hugely fat arms. My stomach is still big, but at least the sagging is smaller. It's not small enough for wrinkles to show. Hang in there. Wrinkly is better than huge and fat! Karla 337/266/150

Lisa, You describe so well exactly how I've been feeling over the past week or so. Thank you for putting words to my emotions. :hug:

Lisa, from reading this post from top to bottom it sounds like you are already feeling better, but I wanted to stop in and give you a big ((((((((HUG)))))))) and let you know we all have a pity party for ourselves some days. I'm so glad you are on your way back out of it, though. I also wanted to say it sounds like you have a great partner in your hubby! Beth

My hubby is the best -- he's been super-uber-supportive throughout this whole thing. Not for HIS benefit, but for mine. And I am feeling much much better, thanks for the hugs and support. I'm so glad to have this board. Lisa

Lisa, first off, don't ever apologize for having these feelings. If you didn't you wouldn't be normal! And it's really good that you shared them rather than just letting it eat away at you. Yes, we should be thankful for what we have, but it is also okay to feel sorry for ourselves occasionally. This is a huge change to be going through and there are going to be many ups and downs. I am glad that you are feeling better, but don't feel guilty about feeling bad either. ((((HUGS)))) Karyn

I wondered when someone was going to be brave enough to admit that all is not 100% hunky dorry. Sure the WLS has done so much for all of us, but there are adjustments to make as well. Trade offs that I doubt any of us even considered before we had surgery. But the question now, is "Was it worth it?" I vote yes. Sure I have my days that I wonder WTF did I do to myself. But I had those days at 250+ pounds too. Everyone has those days. It is just a case of getting through it and seeing what is on the other side, and that is good. I wasn't the fat that covered my body from head to toe before and I'm not the wrinkles and turkey waddle and bat wings that I have now. I am me. What I carry inside of me. It is okay to feel every feeling that comes your way, just don't give into the negative ones, they can only hurt you in the end. You are a wonderful creation made by God and he makes nothing less than perfect. Hazel

Lisa---- I, too, have been despairing over the changes at times---mostly my face--- I did not expect the turkey waddle. Also, my figure has changed----my a** is gone,my breast are hanging flat sacks, but I still have thunder thighs---(oh my!). I can tend to get very stuck on the negative so I tell myself that I have a healthier body that is also prettier. I tell myself that most of my flaws can be hidden in clothes,and that there is nothing to be done about my body shape at this time other than exercise & diet. I have also given myself a time limit. If I am still unhappy next summer (2007) and think I'm done losing weight then I'm gonna start looking into plastic surgery. I'm very thankful you wrote about this. It's a concern for me too. Good luck to you and keep us informed. Cathy