Inland Empire lun*****A today

I don't know if any of you are on the CA board or in my area, but they had a lunch today, not far from my house. I said I was going to go, but I chickened out. I am very shy about meeting new people. Even if I talk to you all on line, I still will be in pain when I go to meet you. I just hope that I can overcome this by our Jan. get together. I could hardly even go to my own school reunions, and I went all the way thru school with almost everyone there, but didn't see them on a normal basis. I thought I could go today, but I couldn't do it alone. My son is like I am, I don't know how to get over it, other than working thru the pain. I have had to do things that are killing me in life, like interviews for film jobs, but it isn't getting any better. It's not that I don't feel good about myself, I always have had a confidence in me and my work and all, it is just meeting people for the first time. I can perform on stage, talk to huge groups of people, but its the one on one. Well thanks for listening, I guess I am embarrased I didn't go after I said I would and wanted to get it off my chest.

Just take it one step at a time and don't push until you are ready. It really is okay that you didn't go. Maybe next time will be different. Hazel

Social anxiety disorder? I haven't known anyone with it...does that sound like what you have? Supposedly, medication can help! Chele

It's just shyness really, painful shyness. I can socialize when I know at least one person. I have gotten better over the years, just felt bad I didn't go today.

Kristi How far are you from the bay area San Francisco? suzan

oh I think it is about 385 miles, I live in so cal, just north of San Diego. Might be 285 not sure, but alot.