Crystal u are a very strong person and u just simply amaze me how strong u are.I have this calm feeling as well crystal , a very calm feeling. I think because I am failrly healthy minus the tumor but my diabetes and etc is gone.. I feel very strong and healthy and able to fight anything inclusing troubles at home I think losing weight has made us deal with the issues that made us fat to begain with , No long are we shoving down the emotions with food we are facing them head on as we lost out best friend called food. well this is how I see it Lisa

I was standing in line the other day at a restroom. There was a girl in front of me who I would have thought was half my size and one behind me who I thought we were about equal. I looked up at the mirror, which before I would never have done because I didn't want to see how much smaller the girl in front was. To my unbelievable shock, I was smaller than her. I didn't even recognize myself for a moment. It's unbelievable. I have noticed that when I look down at my body I still see myself as the large person that I was because I'm still built the same proportionately. My hips still look wide and my thighs still look like tree trunks. For me, it seems to be a perspective thing.

So glad so many od you decided to come back and check in.. I was cleaning out my closet of clothes and alot of it is speigel fat clothes and really nice clothes but to big for me and was hard to let go of them my first time around so this week they went into a bag. I was talking to my friend and I said to bad your wife could not enjoy my clothes I have tossed out and he said Lisa my wife is so much bigger than u ever were, she would not fit the size 20's and I laughed and said I have 28 clothes and he just said OH lol . he said you look much nicer than my wife does been hard to see her in your old clothes and not mess my psychie LOL. I have hard time sinking in I can wear size 14 clothes. Now when I go shopping I start at size 20 not size 26 and go down from there. I have the same issues of feeling like I am still 295 lbs. but some where I know their is a skinny behage dying to get out .. No more shoving food to keep her quiet. I choose to live.. Lisa

Well I am 49 and well I must admit my hubby who is a RNY lost his sex drive and mine ha**** over drive .. I want it 24/7 and he has no intrest.Figures (I MARRY THE GUY WITH NO SEX DRIVE) I do not eat any perseravatives and I watch all the hormones they put in the meat and milk products I really think we are really poisoning our selves with all the process foods. I eat yams flax seeds that help me keep my body stable. I even grind my own wheat and flax seed. My hubby is a junk food aholic and he has no sex drive and I swear it is the soy protien killing his sex drive. He recently ran out of soy powder and he was like a teenager with sex drive on over drive and soon he restarted drinking his protien it was GONE!!!! I choose to get protien in natural state which is very very hard to do. I know But when I was drinking protien I had no sex drive nor was I a happy camper but right now I feel good emotionally and mentally despite dealing with a major set back of platue and my tumor is back . I am just now getting my energy back. I cleaned out my bathroom and bedroom of junk and fat clothes etc. I have been working on declutter my life feels so good not sure is it prepatory if I die from this tumor that the new wife (haha a joke here) I did not want her to go rumaging threw my stuff.. I have no idea why I am calm and not to terriblily upset about things going on in my life.. Have I just given up or what? I JUST FEEL sooo GOOD. I did start on paralodel which is hormone and no ill effects yet. But my depression is just gone.. not complaining here just intresting is why I am this way Lisa

I was very reluctant to take the hormones. In the past, I had allergic reactions to them. I asked for a cream at first but my Dr wanted me to try the pill first. He is monitoring me closely. I was not aware how kaput my sex drive was until I started taking the pills. I actually have thoughts now. I am more aware of my surroundings. I actually notice if someone is attractive-this does not mean that I want them- just that I actually notice. I did not feel like a sexual being anymore so it is like waking from a long sleep. Part of my problem was I hated how I looked before surgery. I did not feel like anyone would want to look at me. Anyway, these pills are one month at a time. You can always try and see if you notice a difference.