Crystal, You have more confidence than you ever had. I think that is the reason you are calm. You can be secure in your convictions and feelings. I am proud of you!! Shar

CONGRATs SHAR!!!!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!

Thank-you Stephanie for the protien suggestion. I have seen those protein shot at GNC with 42 grams of protien, but wasn't sure how they taste. Are they the flavored ones you put in your jello?? I know it will be okay to lose about another 8 or 10 lbs, but considering I am almost 14 months out there is that chance I will keep losing and it is scary. Thanks for your support.

I spoke with my PCP and told him what was happening and asked for some testosterone. He decided to try me on a blend of estrogen and testosterone called estrotest. It is actually for menopausal symptoms but I figured whatever-as long as it works. It has helped-me. Now hubby does not seem interested and I have to pester him into it. Needless to say this is hard. I got the pills so we could have some normalcy in our lives and it still is chaotic. My PCP is keeping a close eye on this medication but I have had no side effects. Things were good in my house before surgery. Never thought we would be struggling with this issue. It has really blindsided me.

I have been pretty quiet also. I have been doing a lot of thinking and trying to fgure out what is going on in my life. I have not posted because I did not know how to put it. Anyway-maybe this will open the doors. My son has been deployed in Afghanistan. He is in a VERY dangerous area with a beyond dangerous job. This has caused me to do some stress eating. I just could not help myself. Luckily, I was able to limit it to a few hours rather than days worth. Then, things are so weird at home with my hubby. I ended up being one that my sex drive went kaput. I have started taking hormones and they are really helping but now hubby does not seem interested. I really feel he does not find me attractive anymore and this has me just about out of my mind. I have tried talking to him but you know how men can be. I was going to blog about this but I know that others-read some locals-read that and I do not want this getting back to him and making things worse. They do not know about my A team. Anyway. I am confident in how I look. I know I look great. It is just so frustrating that my rock, the man I love is becoming more distant each day. I have been trying to be more attentive to him. It is just weird. I am not looking anywhere else. I love my husband and I just want us to get back to being us again. Ya know what I mean?? Anyway, I will probably be embarrassed later but I just need help and support and do not know what else to do. Thanks for bringing this up...