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I am discuraged about still struggling with food issues. It's so frustrating. I thought once the weight came off I would magically be able to control my eating habits and keep it off. Not so. I gained 5 pounds over the holidays... which might as well be 50 cause that's what it feels like to me. I feel like a complete failure and FOOD seems to always be on my mind. I hate the fact that FOOD seems to be all I think about! I was so hoping to be one of those "normal" people who never have to think about what they eat and still stay skinny. "Bubble bursted moment" ....that's not going to happen...and probably never will. I am a recovering morbidly obese woman who will have to fight this addiction for the rest of my life!
So let's get this topic going... and I'll be back to share more of my struggles. Thanks for suggesting this!
Ok, last time I saw my surgeon (probably 2 months ago), he told me, in no uncertain terms, that I cannot lose another pound and I should really start eating more at this stage. I had my surgery 4/30/07 and I am 6'1 and went from 345 lbs. to 165 lbs. I told him that I have stayed at 165 for months and haven't lost anything, so there was nothing for him to worry about.
So over the holidays, I was bad (in my mind) and ate more then I should have and had wine for the first time since my surgery. Well, since Christmas to now, I have lost another 3 lbs.
Anyone else have this issue? I am wondering if it is something I should be worrying about.
I did watch her show and I felt like she was talking to me.I fail at everything I ever do in life and even now after losing 128 lbs I feel like a failure as far as health wise.
I have to go back in for surgery for complication When I had shoulder surgery it was a set back then had shoulder surgery again and I STILL HAVE SPINAL ISSUES I need to deal with, I feel so defeated. I feel I did not only fall off the wagon but my wagon hit the wall and broke a axle, I maybe losing weight but my heath just sucks, I waited to long and now my body is paying the price for all years of abuse and neglet. I am gonna turn 50 jan 29 and I am arriving perhaps this but in broken down body I AM SO ANGRY AT MYSELF FOR NOT DOING THIS SOONER !!!!!!!!!!!!!
I lost my fat armor but I did not realize under all that armor was very sick person I was such a fool to wait so long, I lost all this weight to be buried in smaller casket? I have lost my hope inspirations and feel very alone and depressed I hate myself and body. How do you love your self when it says failure written all over? I should be on top of world to have new body but some reason I am not seeing it that way my future is not very bright,
Lisa
The feelings of failure have been chasing me all along this journey. As I lost weight, I gained self confidence and I was not willing to be the person who had to always be giving and trying so hard to be accepted. I have many relationships that were severed. They no longer seemed to like me when I wasn't saying yes to them all the time.
Failure at body image. I lost the weight and look really good in clothes but out of them-not so great. It has caused issues between hubby and me. As hard as I tried-the comments about my lack of boobs and butt do get to me. He has been very supportive but in my heart I do not think he finds me attractive anymore. This is some very hard truths I am sharing with my A team.
Biggest blow-I worked at my job for 20 yrs-finally got a chance at a promotion and didn't get it. I was very qualified, know I had a great interview (I had communications in college) but it went to someone I trained instead. I did not have the right family name and this just tore out my heart. It just brought back all my feelings of not being good enough-ya know??
So, I want you all that have been struggling at not being at goal to know that the weight loss does not make everything rosey.Hard to believe-I am 5'10-wear a size 4 pant, I am below goal and I still struggle with life. This journey is about finding ourselves, finding our happiness and just keeping on fighting....
282/165/183lbs
Just wanted to check in for the beginning of the new year and hope its happy for everyone.
I've been feeling really lost lately and alone. I'm glad you're all still here... good riddance to 2008... lost my career, my car, my man, and my weight. Guess there's nothing left to do but reinvent myself... cause I sure don't know who I am anymore, and nobody recognises me either. Close friends have become indifferent if they acknowledge me at all, so I need some new friends who can understand this whole journey and not think it was a magic wand over my life. My kids are on their own, and my dog is even out on his own journey. This fish is not much for company... have two birds now... watch them love each other and think that some day i'll find my prince too. Hormones??? Maybe. Just want to reconnect to you. Thanks for sharing your journeys with those of us out here on the fringes who peek in now and again. Take care -Karen G.
I have been thinking alot about why I eat and WHEN i eat in particular. Right when I wake up I want to eat. I wi**** were different because it's very hard after a nap, when it's not time for eating yet, so I try to have a big old glass of water or crystal light instead, but sometimes I just eat cheese or beans. I eat out of boredom too, and I am trying to knit more to keep my hands busy.
But the best answer for me of late has been asking myself Why now? What do you really want? taking a few minutes to say wait, are you really hungry or are you ___________?
it ain't perfect, but it has really slowed down my grazing problem a great deal.
Welcome back to both of us!
