RNY on April 14th

I have gotten all my paperwork in as of yesterday, and am hoping for a quick insurance approval and surgery scheduling. Ideally, I'd like to schedule mine (sleeve) in early/mid-April. No idea if this will work out, but if it doesn't, I think I'll need to wait until mid June due to travel scheduling.

Sure have a lot of feelings roiling around about this, as I'm sure you have.

I have a TON of feelings roiling around.....some of which are contradictory to each other.  What are some of yours?

--Gillian

• I am angry and disappointed with myself for not being able to lose weight and keep it off without resorting to surgery.
• I am scared because I am not sure that surgery will actually help me accomplish permanent weight loss.
• I am despairing because I still cannot accept that I have no other options.
• I am angry because part of me resists the idea that changing my physical self will help me deal with an essentially emotional problem.
• I am afraid I will fail, and that after this there are no other options.
• I am angry because I feel backed against the wall.
• I am grateful that there IS an option other than trying sheer willpower, because that only works for so long before I gain the weight back.
• I am afraid that I won't get enough support, and that I will be alone as I try to approach my obesity and overeating in a new way.
• I am afraid of losing one of the surest, quickest, and oldest means of coping I have at my disposal.
• I am hopeful that this surgery will change me enough so that I am able to succeed in my efforts to be healthy.
• I am determined to live to 100 years old.
• I hate that I will STILL HAVE TO DIET AND EXERCISE after surgery, even though this is exactly what I have failed at all my life.
• I wish I could accept that I am someone who must diet and exercise in order to live a good life.
• I am resentful that there is no magic answer to my problems.
• I am scared that my hair will fall out.
• I am scared that I will eat around the sleeve.
• I am scared the surgery and recovery will hurt.
• I am scared that I will end up with a ton of extra skin.
• I am scared that I will have to have plastic surgery to remedy the excess skin.
• I am scared that I will have permanently tampered with my body, but gained (or lost) nothing in the end.

I'm sure there's more. Mostly, I'm scared and angry right now.

How about you?

My surgery is booked for April 9th. I am from Ontario, Canada. I start Opti-fast on the 26th of March, which is only 11 days away...LOL

I have my date April 22 I can't wait

I just got APPROVED last week after a nine month struggle. My RNY is scheduled for April 22nd.

-Willa

HI Gillian.

I am scheduled April 15th. 29 days to go. 

Hiya Jillian! I start my 2 week liquid diet on April 1st, and am having VSG on April 15th! 

Ht: 5'0" - HW: 252 - CW: 226 - GW: 125

I'm being sleeved April 1st!