YEAH!!!!!!! Back under 150 this morning! Was 152.7 yesterday and upped my water yesterday and cut out all the "crap" and was 149.5 this morning. B-cereal and milk L-turkey wrap with veggies S-1oz almonds and some strawberries(30 min apart) D-shrimp and veggie kabobs on the grill S-protein shake Candy

Do I gotta write it all down???? OKay ----------------------- Thursday: B. 1 c. fruit salad, activia yogurt S. coffee w/cocoa and scp. prot. pwdr L. handful 1/2 c. fruit-nut trail mix, 2 T. broccoli from chic. divan, v-8 juice S. mini-oatmeal bar ( WW 2pt. ) D. 3 oz. chicken ( roasted, skinless), 1/2 c. mandarin oranges S. carmel apple, ff yogurt, 2 big handfulls of chz twists ( this little piggy's - out of pen! ) vits + new addition of L-glutamine and Chromium Picolinate + Lipram (digestive enzyme) + cod liver oil 60 oz. tea / 20 oz. coffee, 10 oz. v-8 000000000000000000000000 exercise O - none except working hand to mouth - in graze/binge * does that count???? elbow up, elbow down, elbow up...this has just gotta stop

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Hugs Becky Keep on keepin' on gal, as my mom used to say " Keep your eye on the ball, and put one foot in front of the other... and do the next right thing." I applaud you for getting out there and running and walking for 6 days straight. I wish I could say that ! ( Except for swimming 2 days ago for an hr. and walking around BJ's wholesale club for an hr. Sat. and Wed. nt. that's all I've done in about 2 wks. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ Sometimes it seems like a juggling act doesn't it??? We get one behavior right then ...oops there goes the other . Three steps forward - two steps back....... is still progress! @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ I was reading a book last night that talked about redefining our goals so that it is not ' a number on the scale' or just ' a size' but also a place where we feel a healthy self respect, pride and honor in our accomplishments. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ I'm chewing on that thought today, myself ...... so if I am going to " Keep my eye on the ball "... guess I'll have to take some time out to reflect on what really are my short term goals and long term goals with this weight loss and health improvement journey???? Don't have an answer yet...just pondering... But wanted to send you mucho hugs...cuz we're all in this together and ...FOR THE LONG HAUL ! Mary

Hiya Diane, Glad you dropped in to say Hi and let us know how you are doing. We've missed seeing you around We all are struggling with food every day. Coming here gives us encouragement and hope and prods us onward and upwards. Last night I also had a crummy evening with food. I had planned to eat out after a family appointment, which after waiting over 1/2 hr. in the waiting room - my dear daughter tells me we had gotten a msg. confirming the appt. but it was a LONG msg so she didn't listen to the rest ! ( which stated we were being re-scheduled till next wk ) I was hungry and my blood sugar was dropping making me dizzy. Hubby and dd had eaten a small meal before we left and I did eat a handful of fruit-nut trail mix earlier at 5:30 pm. But by 7pm my body was ready for protein rich food. I felt to press eating out would sort of reward dd for failing to give us the accurate msg. and inconveniencing us all. We stopped for gas ( where ate a mini oatmeal bar) and at the grocery so dh could buy ice cream and by the time I got home I was sweating, shaking and having a full fledged low blood sugar spaz attack. I ate 3 oz of chicken and some mandarin oranges which filled me up great... but because I was 'simmering in my little stew pot of resentment' my food addiction was whispering "MORE, MORE!!" so after an hour I ate a carmel apple which filled me up again. Fine, right??? No ! Before I went to bed ate a ff yogurt then I decided to get out the bag of organic blue cheese and sharp cheddar cheese twists - albeit made with corn meal BUT I ate more than 2 handfuls - even tho I was not even hungry... It doesn't end there ...I woke up with the burning irritation in my esophagus from eating before bed. When I so proudly just got off my reflux meds 3 wks ago!!!... I asked myself " What do I do now???? Go back on them because I broke the rules and tempted fate with eating food, especially THAT kind of food before I laid down for bed???" Feeling like a dumb bunny and recognizing the roots were ; a) letting myself go too long without dense protein and b) faulty communication c) allowing the bitterness to simmer and bubble into a self sabatage. Whew ! It made me remember someone saying at a meeting: ----------------------------------------------------------------------- DO NOT EVER LET YOURSELF GET TOO; 1. HUNGRY 2. ANGRY 3. LONELY 4. TIRED CALLING IT - H- A- L- T ! ( HALT ) ------------------------------------------------------------------------- ...or it can trigger a slip up. Good thought to keep in mind. Wish I remembered that last nt. So when I screw up I want to hide and shame myself. Seems that as HUMANS when we blow it the first thing we do is { exclude } ourselves from the very thing that we desperately need - LOVE, ENCOURAGEMENT & SUPPORT. In short - being restored Maybe baggage from life where we feel we need to punish ourselves when we've been BAD. One thing I have learned around here is that this is a group of very INCLUSIVE ladies. It is safe to come here when we are good , bad or ugly And we will find others who are struggling just like we are. In that commom bond there is comfort, relief and hope that we can get up dust ourselves off and saddle up. Nobody has it together all the time. Let's have a group HUG and all dust ourselves off and try again today, shall we? with love, Mary