Ok, like some ya'll, I haven't been extremely responsible with my eating lately... I admit that. I've let some bad habits creep in - especially some serious grazing during the day and some serious binge-like behavior at night. This last week, unfortunately, has been really bad... But, over the past 2-3 days, I've REALLY been watching it. It's not perfect, but not as bad as last week. I've also been walking/running for the last 6 days straight. More poor body is screaming at me... "What's this??? Exercise? How DARE you!" I'm also (FINALLY) having a normal cycle. TMI, I know, but it's an exciting moment for me... and I thought that it might help shift my weight off stable a little bit. Oh, it did, alright! I've been fluctuating between about 151 and 154 for months... Last weekend, I was on the upswing at about 154.. Now I"m at 156! I'm starting to get a little nervous now, as I'm past my "comfort zone"... Ack! I knew I was sabotaging myself, but thought I had dodged the bullet, so to speak. Do you think I'm just seeing a gain from last week's bad eating?

Hey everyone ... It's me just checking in. It's been A LONG time since I've been on the boards. Some of it is just plain business, the rest is avoidance. I've been feeling so unworthy to even be here as I am totally not in a good place with my health and weightloss. I'm so thankful that I'm not gaining ... but I'm not eating well (or regularly), rarely exercising, and I'm still smoking. I've tried getting back to keeping a food diary, but after a couple of days that peters off. Starting tomorrow, I want to try it again so we'll see. So, I'm not quite sure why I feel compelled to share all of this. Again, I feel like I have no business being here. But I am, and it is what it is. WLS certainly IS NOT a cure-all. It is good to see there are those "hanging in there" and I'm glad to see others are succeeding. I know there is hope for me yet ... I just need to tap into some motivation to make some changes. Diane

Hey guys, I think I got it. I ate a lot tonite, a lot and really fast too. I think I did it on purpose too, just being honest. So as i sit here feeling like absolute crap (I really feel like Im gonna burst) I am also quite happy that I have realized that I would have been totally satisfied with a quarter of what I put in my mouth. To me that's growth, My mind is finally getting it. And I just feel some kind of way...Like I'm sick of the s&%* and its time to get back on track. I know what I need to do, and I'm gonna do it! I've come too far to go back! Aliya

Thank you everyone for your prayers!! My grandma came home today and is just taking pills for her blood and all. She did have a blood clot in her lungs. So she was in the hospital for 1 week and 3 days. SO SO SO SO glad she is home! I missed her too much. Once again thank you each and everyone for your prayers and your thoughts and your kind words!

Bodies are weird things, aren't they? Pre-B: Protein shake (made w/ iced coffee) B: Cup o' joe, piece of SF chocolate swirl cheesecake (yup... cream cheese, eggs = breakfast) L: Shredded chicken w/ diced tomatoes w/ cheddar cheese melted on top S: 1 slice muenster (I'm outta provolone????), protein shake D: Chef salad perhaps S: Protein shake and maybe something else. Going to start having the protein shake first in the evening and something else (usually SF ice cream) if I have room and not the other way around. DUH. Water: 40 oz water down, 16.9 propel down, working on next 20 oz. Vitamins: Need more calcium later - other than that I'm good. Exercise: Was feeling bad today. Home sick from work. Feel better now. Kathy