Thank you all for your messages of support. Today I am able to go for longer than five minutes without crying, which is progress. I am still not wanting to eat food, but making sure to drink my protein and take vitamins. I tried doing a little Christmas shopping this morning, but couldn't get into the spirit yet, maybe tomorrow. Maybe my husband will cook something good for supper, and get me eating again. He has been a wonderful rock of support through this, along with my children. Debra M.

Oh, Debra, I am so terribly sorry. As someone who loves her father so very deeply I can only imagine what you must be feeling. Do know that we are praying for you. Also, no amount of food, sugar, or cutting will bring him back. I can understand the desire to numb, but you will feel the feelings eventually. Numbing them will only delay the inevitable. No matter when you feel them they will be horrific, unbelievable, and painful. But you will feel them and they are just feelings and they will eventually subside. You will always miss him and mourn him, but it will get easier. Take care and keep writing. It's better than harming yourself with food or other things. Michelle

Kathy, You certainly are in my prayers!!!!! I'm sure you're in a whirlwind of information overload. You deserve to be stressed and to have a fit when needed. I'm sure your husband and family will understand. But please know that we're here for ya!!!! Hugs, laurie

You are in my prayers. Keep your chin up!

Debra, I am so sorry to hear about your father. Please know that you are in my prayers. Take care of yourself. Big hugs, Wanda