I don't know how I feel about this site anymore

As the post says, I do not know how I feel about this site anymore.

I know everyone has their own agenda including me, but I have to say I am feeling..well I cannot express it without ******g people off.

I try my hardest of hardest to support people and share in their enthusiasm and triumphs...and yes their sorrow and grief and everything inbetween. I always try and act upbeat when maybe I do not feel like I am upbeat.

So with that said thank you to the 6 people who saw fit to wish me happy 6th surgiversary. Maybe it was no big deal to all of you, but it was a big deal to me and I am one of the furthest out here on the boards. I find it amazing that people who never come around get more attention.

With that said also...maybe I ought to make myself scarce as I am feeling not so good right now. I made a committment to the boards as it was the only place for me to get support when I needed it because there was NOTHING in the desert when I first researched so to speak about having surgery and any kind of aftercare. I thought pay it forward. I guess I feel that it would be nice just to get a bone thrown your direction.

Call me selfish....maybe I am, but I just happen to have feelings and feel somewhat hurt. I am glad my new friend took me out to the casino today for lunch and won $500.

I kind of feel stupid in a way saying all this and I support people because I WANT to....not for anything more, but the morning post made me realize how much of my post people do not read.

Have a good evening all!

PEACE OUT!  

Janine, I am so sorry that you are bummed!!!  I am kind of new on this site...since the end of March and I try to read your morning post everyday!!  It is WONDERFUL... You are an ANGEL...for you to remember so much of what is going on and making the point to comment on so many people. I know how exciting it is when we get to a mile stone and how bummed it is when poeple don't notice.  This site has been such a lifesaver for me and I know it is for so many other people.  You shouldn't feel stupid in anyway...hopefuly you feel better getting this off  you chest. Take care......Michele

OK SO I WIL HAVE THE B*LLS TO COME ON HERE AND WISH YOU A HAPPY SIX YEAR I HAVE NOT BEEN ON BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN BUSY WITH MY UNCLE AND HIS GIRLDFRIEND BUT IT IS NOT AN EXCUSE...I AM SORRY MY FRIEND (IHOPEICANCALLU THAT)  THAT YOU ARE FEELING THIS WAY BUT JUST KNOW THAT UR MESSAGES INSPIRE ME IN MANY WAYS AND THAT YOU ARE REALLY CARED FOR IN BIGGS CALIFORNIA...LOVE YOU AND LIKE I SAID  TO CONTINUED SUCCESS........... HAPPY SIX YEARS........ OK SH*T WE CANT HAVE THAT BUT  FELICIDADES (CONGRATS)...

Awwwwwww Janine!  I'm soooo sorry!  I just so happen to get online and see your post.  I've just been going thru so much drama lately(excuses are like ********everybody has one-), I wasn't even paying attention.  And, my laptop has been busted for a few weeks now.  I just got a new one yesterday.  Yay me!  However, I WISH YOU A HAPPY 6TH YEAR SURGIVERSARY GIRLIE!!  You are very upbeat with all of us and I know that life has its obstacles for you as well so I hope you know that WE do wish you much luv and respect. Its soooo awesome to be "you" in your 6th year out girl Catt

Aww Janine,  I'm sorry you're feeling this way.  I try to get on every few days and make a post here or there too, and I know I appreciate your ever present support for everyone.  I hope that you can enjoy your day and your success despite this all.  Congratulations on 6 years, thats great! -Donna

Dear Janine,

I can completely understand your feelings being hurt. You are the least selfish person on this board, so you should push the thought clear out of your head that you may be selfish. That's pure bull****

Every morning I read the morning post. It amazes me how you always can think to remember to give everyone such heartfelt words of support, encouragement and concern.

I would miss you terribly if you made yourself scarce but I do understand if you feel the need to take a break. I hope you will remain here on the board. Because I for one think ...

Lauren

 

OMG Janine - I am so so so sorry - I do read your post every day and yes - I admit it - I am a scum for not wishing you congrats.....I feel terrible.  I am not even going to make up any excuses.....Can you forgive me.  Please don't leave the site - we love  you here and I don't know what I would do without your awesome daily posts and all of your encouragement and support. I really do feel terrible. But I do congratulate you and I do care about you FOR SURE.......you are one awesome woman my friend. And by the way - that is awesome that you won some $$ at the casino - WTG All I can say is YOU ROCK -

Sammi and I love you! You would be terribly missed.  I feel like a schmuck. I should have made a separate post and added your link when I thought about it this morning. Please forgive me too. Your 6 year surgiversary is a very special occasion and should be better recognized! Hugs to you Sue

Dear Janine........... Let me say this first off Congrats on 6 years!  I log on each and every morning looking forward to reading what you have to say!  You're incredible and always have something postive to say about everyone.  You do shout-outs to all of us and make all the newbies feel welcome.  Ive only been one here a couple of months and yet YOU are the one who always responds to everyone else.  I'm sorry I didn't have a chance to say anything earlier but.....lame excuse.....I just got home from work.   Please stay tuned and contune to be the inspiration to all of us!  From way up here to all the way down there and every inch of dirt in between I think I speak for a lot of us "sometimes lurkers" feel welcome, special and awsome and you always remember everyone and encourage us to give a shout out of encouragement to everyone having special days. Thanks for just being you and loving all of us!

Janine I only get on in the evenings - so I dont see the morning post till after dinner.  I usually feel out of the loop by then :)    But I so enjoy your daily update. I am so sorry you are feeling this way.  You are THE most supportive, caring and un-agenda person I have met here.   The fact that you continue to share after 6 years is amazing.   I hope you continue to do so.

I want to wish you a happy 6 year surgiversary!   Wish I could have done it sooner.   I hope you have something special planned this evening.

:)  kelly