REALLY struggling this week!

I just don't know what it is, but I am craving carbs like a mad woman this week!  And I'd like to say that I haven't indulged, but I really don't want to be struck by lightning!

And there's SO much available at work; there are almost always muffins and bagels and candy and everything else.  I have found myself "just having a bite" of just about everything this week!  And then feeling sick from the sugar, getting over it, and having a bite again! 

And the worst part is that my co-workers all know that I'm not supposed to be eating stuff like that, so I know that when they see me eating stuff, they are probably thinking "Wow, DeAnna's not supposed to be eating that!  She's probably going to gain all the weight back!"  I vividly remember how people would watch an old co-worker of mine after she had surgery, scrutinizing everything she ate!  If that's not "motivation" to stay on track, I don't know what is?  Yet I'm still putting stuff in my mouth!

I really have to get this under control.  I do NOT want to gain the weight back!  I live in fear of that happening, although am apparently not fearful enough! 

Anyone else go through phases like this?  Any advice, guys?

Hi De Anna,
Just wanted to say hello, since we're almost neighbors. I live in Hollister, close to Monterey. That's where I had my surgery, in Monterey.
I have all those fears you are talking about. I'm so afraid that If I start nibbling on carbs or any bad food I'll never stop. I have to try very hard now and mostly in the future not to start. I just had surgery Dec 2008 so I'm still being good. Real happy with the weight lost and expect a lot more.  But I know if i decide to cheat, it's going to be all over, for me that is.
Good Luck and Lot's of WILL POWER,
NJO

De Anna,

While I am still so new at this journey, I too sometimes crave the carbs.  One of my co-workers is 3 years post op and she brought in some "healthy" almond clusters.  They are very low in fat and sugar but very yummy.  She gave me a very small bag and I about devoured the whole thing in a day!  UGH, I was very happy once they were gone because I am supposed to only be on 500 calories per day.  So we're all in this together.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Barb

Speaking from a veteran snacker and a bite here and there.....well you know the story DeAnna...you watch me go through admitting to weight gain and went on to lose a lot after I dumped the carbs. Let me tell you the more you snitch a carb here and a bad carb there....you are going to stay in that vortex of viciousness that the carb monster intends for you.

You have to buckle down and re-evaluate why you had this surgery and it was not a game to play with. Did you not have this surgery to get healthy? Yeah your co-workers are probably talking behind your back because people like to see others fail especially when it comes to wls. Do you want to give them that satisfaction?

DeAnna you were strong enough to make a life changing decision...take that same determination and fight that carb monster off because there ain't that tastes as good thin feels!

I am not trying to be a ***** to you and for sure I have my scrapes sometimes, but overall I have no intentions of losing to the carb monster! So a good swift kick and take a reality check...you have done great....look fantastic....and I am sure feel good in spite of a few carb snitchings....it will catch up!!! Be strong!!!

De Anna

I don't know what your going through, since I've just had surgery. I do hope you get strong and avoid those evil tempting foods. You can do it. I think sometimes we all just have to give in so we can become stronger in the long run.

Hugs
~ Marcy ~

I have heard that just before your period, you crave carbs.  I don't have any advice for you.  I can tell you the I have had conversations with food, many times.  I have had it in front of me, and asked "You control me?  But you are a bunch of fat and flour!  I AM stronger than you and I can squish you like a bug!"  Yes, I do these things, and am not loopy!   I have thought, if I walk over and pick it up, and put in my mouth - It is not random eating.  I am making a choice at the time.  If I choose to do this, I make it small (and usually tastes like cr$p) to satisify the craving. BUT carbs will make you want more carbs.  It is a horrible cycle.  Good Luck, with whatever choices you make daily!

I know where you're coming from...once you open up that door it's like you're running with the Devil.  I'm thinking of a brave girl...Who took on WLS, moved to Monterey by herself (with very few friends in the area), struggled through her brother's death, and is continuing to do well in work and enjoying life!!  This same girl will be able to adapt to the carb moster that is there...and everywhere.
Here are some of the ways I try and keep the moster in check...(it's a life long battle).  I force good foods in me.  You know the ones...protein, vegetables, apples, water.  If throughout the day I am eating right for 80-90% of the time...the other times I can give in a little (not that I wish to...we all struggle in this area).  Several years ago, during one of my diet phases, I was working at the call center in Riverbank.  During my 1/2 hour lunch I would scarf down something quick (healthy food), then walk for about 20 minutes.  Take acouple minutes for personal stuff...then back to work.  What I am saying is that finding a walking buddy might help you in your quest for the grail (a smaller you).  I think of AA or NA...It's one moment at a time.  Brian  PS...Breakrooms are not our friends!!

Hi De Anna...don't have any advice...but this wonderful group of friends are sure pulling for you!  And with this kind of support, you'll be back on track in no time!
Nancy aka Sunray...kicking that cookie monster in the bahootie! ^_^

well oh my goooooooodness girl. try working over in the Cancer Center. Poison everywhere!!!!!!! Stay strong and just don't do it. I have been just trying a bite here and there and gained 2 pounds! if you have a weak moment just pick up the phone and dial extension 4753. i am always at my desk. I brought a bag of carrots at my desk. i have narrowed it down to boredom eating. eating when i am bored sitting at my desk so carrots seem to help with that. unfortunately i have been drinking WAY to much coffee.

Anyway, stay strong and just call me when you need a good a*s kicking!

Hugs,

J

Hey there!!! Sounds like you are going through something I have went through a couple of times. Over Thanksgiving/Christmas  I gained several pounds which I promptly lost once I got back into town and weighed myself haha. I have found that once I tell myself it is okay to just have a little of something, I end up having more than just a little. And then I crave it all of the time. I never liked sugar before surgery. Didn't eat much candy or sweets. I had a bit of pie during christmas and craved sugar so badly the rest of the day. It was horrible. So i find that I unfortunately have to stay away from it completely. Some say if you never let yourself have a little of what you crave then you will end up binging on it later but for me if I have even just a sliver I will want it for the rest of the day and probably have dreams about it. Hahaha. I cannot tell you how many dreams I've had where I binged on a pile of donuts and woke up so relieved I hadn't actually eaten the donuts. Whatever works for you, do it! You have done so well so far and I know this won't "eat" at you if you kick its ass! You can do it!

Love, Tiffany