I did it! I went through with WLS surgery!

I did it. On Wednesday, May 27, I had RNY surgery at El Camino Hospital with Dr. Legha.  I had a rather difficult time in the recovery room.  I was in such an intense amount of pain, I was awake and can remember thrashing around a lot and saying "Pain pain pain" over and over again.  The person tending to me told me to "Be quiet! There are other people in here!" I told them I didn't care and to be nicer to me and that I obviously couldn't help it.  It's amazing how honest I am when I am in pain and have powerful drugs coursing through my veins. Normally I would have felt ashamed, but telling somebody to be quiet under those cir****tances and yelling at me was not a reasonable request.

After coming to in my hospital room, I was doing much better.  In fact I was able to move around a lot and took two walks arout the hospital floor that day.  The nurse said I was ahead of the curve which made me feel less embarrassed over my reaction in the recovery room.

I came home the next day, but before I left, I felt like I had extreme heartburn and was very uncomfortable.  I mentioned it to the nurse and she said the more I walk, the more that will go away.  Today is Friday and unfortunately it hasn't improved.  Drinking water is painful and I've barely eaten a thing other than water and half of a protein shake. I called the nurse and left her a message.  Hopefully I'll hear from them soon.

I go in and out of feeling good about what I've done and regret.  I feel shame sometimes at allowing myself to get fat in the first place and shame for not being able to lost the weight on my own.  These are feelings I need to deal with. It traces back to being very critical to myself and hating myself.  I know these feelings don't inspire me to take care of myself, but the feelings are there and ignoring them won't make them go away either.  I told a support group I belong to over a year ago that one of my major goals was to stop hating myself.  I've made some strides in this area.

Hi and welcome to the looser's bench!

As for the heart burn, did your doc prescribe ant-acids? I have a scrip that i have to take for the first 90 days post-op. ..

As for hating yourself, unfortunately, the surgery doesnt fix our heads

Feel better soon!

Well welcome to the losers' bench . . . and by this time next week . . . I would assume you will be feeling a whole lot better . . . it takes time . . . but is so worth it in the end.  Just try to be positive . . . walk . . . sip . . .walk . . . sip . . . and things will go better from there!

Hugs
Chris

I am sorry to hear that you had a rough time and appear to continue to feel bad.  Remember that you just had the WLS and it will take some time.  If the problems continue then make sure you get in touch with your surgeon.  You definitely should be on prilosec or something similar (at least I know I was and continue to be).  Wishing you a speedy recovery and a great wls journey.
Terry

Congratulations on your surgery. Give yourself some time and keep walking. It gets better

Kim