What Are You Thankful for Today?
First and foremost, I am ever thankful for my husband, who has been with me since before I became "sick" (bipolar) - through my nasty divorce with my first husband, many health scares, my overwhelming guilt associated with my daughter, my weight loss surgery and even now, with my decision to go back to school. Even when I feel at my most low, he always thinks I'm the best, most beautiful person. I know this, because he tells me, and I am so incredibly lucky.
Next, I am thankful for Becky and Rhonda. After things went south on me quite a few years ago, I got extremely angry at God. I knew he was always there, but I chose to ignore him because of my pain. It was so raw, and I was very unforgiving. I had always tried to be a good person, why was I in so much pain? Why did I deserve this? Slowly, over the years, the pain got a little less raw, and then became a dull ache. I thought that being in a healthy, loving relationship with my husband was my cure-all. When I first started hanging out with Becky, she was always so open about her relationship with God, and to tell the truth, part of me was a little jealous at first (sorry, becks). I wanted that back. Over time, I got to thinking that maybe God wasn't the bad person I thought he was.
And then the funniest thing happened. I was having some major problems with my Astronomy homework. I had posted on here about it, and Rhonda - just being her caring, loving self, just said so simply, that they would pray for me. I don't know what happened exactly, but there I was, sitting in my living room, stressing like crazy over not getting this one stupid problem right - and all of a sudden, I felt... oh heck, how can I describe it... just like a flood of calm. It didn't feel weird, or "supernatural" or anything freaky. It felt, so natural. It felt right.
Sometimes, Rhonda and Becky, people don't have to make big gestures to make a difference. Becky, you will always be my forever friend, even though I don't get to see you as much as I like. And Rhonda, I will always be grateful to you - you were just being yourself, and sharing a part of yourself with me; who knew it would affect me so?
Wow, I've said a bunch. Overall, I'm just thankful, for everything.
As for that day, all of us in the room, kids included, stopped what we were doing and said a prayer for you. It was great and I'm sooooooo thrilled it worked!!!
Rhonda, we make a GREAT team honey!!!! more tears I'm such a baby! lol
You will always be my forever friend too sweetie! I tried to call you this morning to congratulate you on your Onederland and size 16 but you must have already been at school. So proud of you girlie!!!!
love you and bigg huggs, Becky
Surgery was RNY 5/21/07...I can be found on Facebook: anewbecboo or Becky Reddick
1. God
2. my husband who I love with all my heart and who has always loved me for who I am
3. our beautiful girls, who I'm glad survived what we've put them through
4. for God's giving more chances to get it right
5. For the GREAT FRIENDS I HAVE HERE ON OH, can't be thankful enough for that one
6. for the WONDERFUL care Rhonda took of me and the AWESOME experience of getting to be a part of her household for a week, I love you sooooo much honey!!! damn, more tears
7. for my HERO of a surgeon, who went above and beyond what he was suppose to do in my surgery
8. for Kirsten who made me think about getting better surgeons
9. for my WLS and everything it has meant to my life!!!!
10. a HAPPY CALI BOARD, woo hoo!!!!!
thanks Barb for doing this and I LOVE "Daily Thanksgivings"
bigg huggs, Becky
Surgery was RNY 5/21/07...I can be found on Facebook: anewbecboo or Becky Reddick