good wed morning
stephanie.... i sooooo hear you. It is choices at this point. When I eat the things that make my pouch feel "full",, like salad, veggies, meat protein, I DO get that full feeling that I'm used to.
My PROBLEM is me... my choices... eating what I "want"... not disciplining myself.
On the revision board, I see people going from bands to various bypass surgeries, and also the other way around. Seems like they get success again when they are FORCED to stop eating via being/feeling full.
I KNOW that I have the tool and CAN do it myself now, but, dang, it is a challenge each and every day. Today, so far, I have done very well. One meal/day/hour at a time, huh?
thanks for keeping me company in my situation....
let's do better...for ourselves!!
xoxo
Lori
My PROBLEM is me... my choices... eating what I "want"... not disciplining myself.
On the revision board, I see people going from bands to various bypass surgeries, and also the other way around. Seems like they get success again when they are FORCED to stop eating via being/feeling full.
I KNOW that I have the tool and CAN do it myself now, but, dang, it is a challenge each and every day. Today, so far, I have done very well. One meal/day/hour at a time, huh?
thanks for keeping me company in my situation....
let's do better...for ourselves!!
xoxo
Lori
I'm with ya Lori. That is one of the reasons I came back here. Once I felt "safe" (you know what I mean) I realized that even though Mike and I can support each other at home (although we don't do a great job of it) it's not the same as the actual support I used to get from here and my in-person support group.
From here I felt all kinds of encouragement and the desire to do well and even though I never made it to goal, I was a comfortable size 14. Something I had never imagined being in my life. I went from over 450 pounds to a size 14 and now I'm going back up again. I've gained over 60 pounds because I stopped following directions. As you said, I started to eat what I wanted.
Reality is that if I eat dense protein (meat, fish, chicken) I get a full feeling. It doesn't last long, but it is there. Unhealthy carbs or white carbs as I call them feel better going down and that is because they go right through. My dense proteins might not stay in there for more than a 1/2 hour, but it's longer than the white carbs do. Add to that the fact that I don't dump from sugar and I decided to just put my blinders on to what I was doing to myself and pretend like it wasn't happening. Shame on me.
I'm not saying no one should get a revision. I haven't ruled it out yet myself. But I'm really looking at my reasons for wanting one. In the beginning we always said surgery is not the easy way out. And it's not. However, it is easier at this point then having to look at myself in the mirror and admit to myself that it is me who failed not the surgery. All the while I was losing weight after the surgery, I said, if I only had 100 pounds to lose I never would have had the surgery. I would have gone on a diet seriously and lost it. Well now I probably have 100 pounds to lose and I can't understand why I can't just DO it. I want to blame it on everyone and everything else. The reality is, it is my fault and my fault alone. I need to own up to it, take possession of it and do something about it.
I do believe that for me now, surgery would be the easy way out. But what would it teach me. Would it put me back to where I am now in 5 years? I need to take control of myself and my actions now.
Wow, thanks for letting me go on and on Lori. It's good to have people who understand and can hear where we are all coming from again. I've so missed the support from here. It's good to be home.
xoxox
Steph
From here I felt all kinds of encouragement and the desire to do well and even though I never made it to goal, I was a comfortable size 14. Something I had never imagined being in my life. I went from over 450 pounds to a size 14 and now I'm going back up again. I've gained over 60 pounds because I stopped following directions. As you said, I started to eat what I wanted.
Reality is that if I eat dense protein (meat, fish, chicken) I get a full feeling. It doesn't last long, but it is there. Unhealthy carbs or white carbs as I call them feel better going down and that is because they go right through. My dense proteins might not stay in there for more than a 1/2 hour, but it's longer than the white carbs do. Add to that the fact that I don't dump from sugar and I decided to just put my blinders on to what I was doing to myself and pretend like it wasn't happening. Shame on me.
I'm not saying no one should get a revision. I haven't ruled it out yet myself. But I'm really looking at my reasons for wanting one. In the beginning we always said surgery is not the easy way out. And it's not. However, it is easier at this point then having to look at myself in the mirror and admit to myself that it is me who failed not the surgery. All the while I was losing weight after the surgery, I said, if I only had 100 pounds to lose I never would have had the surgery. I would have gone on a diet seriously and lost it. Well now I probably have 100 pounds to lose and I can't understand why I can't just DO it. I want to blame it on everyone and everything else. The reality is, it is my fault and my fault alone. I need to own up to it, take possession of it and do something about it.
I do believe that for me now, surgery would be the easy way out. But what would it teach me. Would it put me back to where I am now in 5 years? I need to take control of myself and my actions now.
Wow, thanks for letting me go on and on Lori. It's good to have people who understand and can hear where we are all coming from again. I've so missed the support from here. It's good to be home.
xoxox
Steph
Can't count me for a thing. Sorry same old same old. I got to eat more protein. But that has always been my problem. I so hate to eat protien. give me a salad, give me fruit, give me something fresh! I love fresh and natural. Gosh a year ago I would have never said that. All I wanted was cookies and icecream! Well evreyone have a wonderful day. I have family coming in for a long weekend so I am going to be busy cooking and cleaning and laughing I will try to get on here time to time but who knows. I love these relatives and they usually come in April but this year they get to come twice and that is an awesome thing. WELL I gotta go and clean something everyone have a blessed day.
Rhonda
Rhonda
Put me down for a whooping 4 pounds!! Yea!! It is finally moving again, the scales that is. Was starting to wonder if that was it for me.Went to meet my new PCP, as my old one is moving to Idaho. This new one is a hoot...He is morbidly obese and was talking to me about him having WLS!!! So, I gave him the name of my Dr. He also is a pain management specialist and changed my pain meds and add one new one and tinkered with a couple I was already taking. I got there at 2:00 and didn't walk out of there until 4:50!!! When I got there I was having a really bad bladder day (due to the IC) so he did a urine test and my numbers for biliruben are way up so I have to go in for blood work today. There was also a lot of blood in my urine which is "normal" for me but there was no infection. Thank goodness!
Anyway, I am getting my gear together to take off for the weekend. It is time for me to get out of the house once again.
Have a good hump day all.
HUGS
JOY
hi Lisa 
and Cali peeps!
I am feeling much better today. I think yesterday morning was just a moody morning for me. It happens.
Today I am sitting at 196.5; Chris I don't know the last weight you went off of, so I'll just update my ticker and you can have fun from there. I was stuck right at 200-201 for a good couple of weeks, and now it just seems like the scale wanted to move a little bit. I'll take anything I can get.
Really, though - if I didn't lose anymore weight, I would be okay. My diabetes is gone, my cholesterol is great; I am in a size 15/16 and large/extra large shirt. I wear shorts now - I would have never done that before. And tank tops. That's my outfit of choice this summer; shorts and a tank top!
Anyway, hope you all are doing great!
and Cali peeps!I am feeling much better today. I think yesterday morning was just a moody morning for me. It happens.
Today I am sitting at 196.5; Chris I don't know the last weight you went off of, so I'll just update my ticker and you can have fun from there. I was stuck right at 200-201 for a good couple of weeks, and now it just seems like the scale wanted to move a little bit. I'll take anything I can get.
Really, though - if I didn't lose anymore weight, I would be okay. My diabetes is gone, my cholesterol is great; I am in a size 15/16 and large/extra large shirt. I wear shorts now - I would have never done that before. And tank tops. That's my outfit of choice this summer; shorts and a tank top!
Anyway, hope you all are doing great!
39 lbs lost prior to surgery!
Good MOrning all! Today brings me a trip to the dentist right off to get my teeth cleaned and a cavity filled. I have droopy lip. boooo
I am down 2 pounds!!! Yay! About freakin' time.
It's still hotter 'n hell and can hardly wait a couple of weeks to go rafting. The old man and I are flying out Friday morning from Sacramento headed to VEGAS!!! Anniversary weekend. #6. Best 6 years of my life! I tell you, being married to your best friend is the best thing in the whole wide world.
Off to work. STay hydrated, take your vitamins (I forgot mine at home - will bust open an emergency pack) and move your boo-tay to-day!
I am down 2 pounds!!! Yay! About freakin' time.
It's still hotter 'n hell and can hardly wait a couple of weeks to go rafting. The old man and I are flying out Friday morning from Sacramento headed to VEGAS!!! Anniversary weekend. #6. Best 6 years of my life! I tell you, being married to your best friend is the best thing in the whole wide world.
Off to work. STay hydrated, take your vitamins (I forgot mine at home - will bust open an emergency pack) and move your boo-tay to-day!
Morning Lisa, Chris and all Cali gang!
Chris, I'll report a minimal .3lb loss (be careful here..NOT 3!) but it's still going in the right direction so I won't complain. I know the culbret is fresh strawberries and I've been having some every nite, but dang! they are soooo sweet and right out of the berry patch! We discovered a couple from Vietnam who have their own little stand and strawberry patch...and their berries are so so sooo much better and sweeter than what you buy in the stores. I only eat 5-6 at a time but I guess even using the Lite Cool Whip isn't helping, (ya think??) LOL
Lisa...so happy to see you back posting! And OUCH for the back pain and possible kidney stone...had that 1 time...and that was enough to insure I got my water in...keep those kidneys flushed!
Michelle....good luck on your surgery!! I am so excited for you and just know that you will do great! Just imagine...in just a few days, your life will totally change...to you becoming a healthier, happier YOU!
Jackie...some doctors are just jerks. Nothing seems to please them and no excuses can explain a poor bed side manner. I definitely would request the other doctor next time....it's your dollar and you are entitled to get the care you expect and are paying for! At least Diane has let you know that it wasn't you...he's a jerk with all of his patients :-( He may be a fantastic surgeon, which is who we want when undergoing surgery, but we don't have to put up with negative attitudes afterward.
Rhonda...so you are telling us you are going to be MIA for a few days?? Shirley (yea, I spelled it wrong!) you can find a minute or two to tell us if you had a 'peeing in your pants' session again! We love to laugh vicariously thru your adventures! Have a great time with your visitors ^_^
Barb...I hope your workshop gives you additional help in the job hunting arena. Hey I know...you are looking toward Sacramento for a job, right?? Would be so neat! We could meet half way more often LOLOL
Diane...just a few more days...I don't know how you have done it...sitting for over 6 weeks....I am in awe of you Lady. I can only continue to pray that this surgery will give you the blessed peace and recovery you so richly deserve!
To the peeps I haven't mentioned by name...it's only because I can't remember any more!! I love reading every single post that appears here....I feel like I have extended family...and just like all families...I haven't met all members..but I certainly CARE about each and every one ^_^ Have a wonderful day...and treat yourself special..Because YOU ARE!!
Nancy aka Sunray
Chris, I'll report a minimal .3lb loss (be careful here..NOT 3!) but it's still going in the right direction so I won't complain. I know the culbret is fresh strawberries and I've been having some every nite, but dang! they are soooo sweet and right out of the berry patch! We discovered a couple from Vietnam who have their own little stand and strawberry patch...and their berries are so so sooo much better and sweeter than what you buy in the stores. I only eat 5-6 at a time but I guess even using the Lite Cool Whip isn't helping, (ya think??) LOL
Lisa...so happy to see you back posting! And OUCH for the back pain and possible kidney stone...had that 1 time...and that was enough to insure I got my water in...keep those kidneys flushed!
Michelle....good luck on your surgery!! I am so excited for you and just know that you will do great! Just imagine...in just a few days, your life will totally change...to you becoming a healthier, happier YOU!
Jackie...some doctors are just jerks. Nothing seems to please them and no excuses can explain a poor bed side manner. I definitely would request the other doctor next time....it's your dollar and you are entitled to get the care you expect and are paying for! At least Diane has let you know that it wasn't you...he's a jerk with all of his patients :-( He may be a fantastic surgeon, which is who we want when undergoing surgery, but we don't have to put up with negative attitudes afterward.
Rhonda...so you are telling us you are going to be MIA for a few days?? Shirley (yea, I spelled it wrong!) you can find a minute or two to tell us if you had a 'peeing in your pants' session again! We love to laugh vicariously thru your adventures! Have a great time with your visitors ^_^
Barb...I hope your workshop gives you additional help in the job hunting arena. Hey I know...you are looking toward Sacramento for a job, right?? Would be so neat! We could meet half way more often LOLOL
Diane...just a few more days...I don't know how you have done it...sitting for over 6 weeks....I am in awe of you Lady. I can only continue to pray that this surgery will give you the blessed peace and recovery you so richly deserve!
To the peeps I haven't mentioned by name...it's only because I can't remember any more!! I love reading every single post that appears here....I feel like I have extended family...and just like all families...I haven't met all members..but I certainly CARE about each and every one ^_^ Have a wonderful day...and treat yourself special..Because YOU ARE!!
Nancy aka Sunray
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Hi all,
I have dropped 5 pounds this week!! Woo Hoo!! I am very happy about this! Today also marks 2 months exactly since my surgery. I have lost a total of 48 pounds!! I think this is good weight loss?? Well, to me it seems good and I guess that's what counts.
I have to run and interview someone for a press secretary position we have open. I can't believe I get to hire someone in this environment, but I do.
Take Care,
Ms.Blues
I have dropped 5 pounds this week!! Woo Hoo!! I am very happy about this! Today also marks 2 months exactly since my surgery. I have lost a total of 48 pounds!! I think this is good weight loss?? Well, to me it seems good and I guess that's what counts.
I have to run and interview someone for a press secretary position we have open. I can't believe I get to hire someone in this environment, but I do.
Take Care,
Ms.Blues
Morning all...
I am down 1 pound...and I am happy!! The scale has been moving again since I've changed my way of eating. It is not typical post RNY, but it has the same philosophy. Protein, selected veggies,( for first 8 weeks, then a nutrient change for another 8-24 weeks), exercise and WATER!. I am EXTREMELY Insulin Resistant. a result of untreated PCOS and ofcourse obesity, so I am flollowing the Metabolism B program. It is a cross between modified Adkins (LEAN protein. limited carb intake for a limited amount of time, then measured carbs forever..in a particular count and in a partiuclar timeframe through out the day.) The book that details the program is called The Metabolism Miracle, and is designed for people who are on the dangerous far edge of Type 2 Diabetes and have what is called Metabolic Syndrome. I was never able to figure out why so many people were off their diabetic meds so soon..it was heart breaking for me. Continual needles, pills and a stagnant scale...well..its a moving now, and I am taking a 1/2 dose of my 24 hr. insulin!! Best of all, I am feeling better than I have even years before my RNY. I am still extremely happy I had it, ....oh my...I love my RNY tool !!
sending love n hugs to everybody...
Kim in Fontana
I am down 1 pound...and I am happy!! The scale has been moving again since I've changed my way of eating. It is not typical post RNY, but it has the same philosophy. Protein, selected veggies,( for first 8 weeks, then a nutrient change for another 8-24 weeks), exercise and WATER!. I am EXTREMELY Insulin Resistant. a result of untreated PCOS and ofcourse obesity, so I am flollowing the Metabolism B program. It is a cross between modified Adkins (LEAN protein. limited carb intake for a limited amount of time, then measured carbs forever..in a particular count and in a partiuclar timeframe through out the day.) The book that details the program is called The Metabolism Miracle, and is designed for people who are on the dangerous far edge of Type 2 Diabetes and have what is called Metabolic Syndrome. I was never able to figure out why so many people were off their diabetic meds so soon..it was heart breaking for me. Continual needles, pills and a stagnant scale...well..its a moving now, and I am taking a 1/2 dose of my 24 hr. insulin!! Best of all, I am feeling better than I have even years before my RNY. I am still extremely happy I had it, ....oh my...I love my RNY tool !!
sending love n hugs to everybody...
Kim in Fontana
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