a little frustrated today

Well.. I don't want to ***** but I feel the need to vent a little today.  I had my appt. to remove my staples and I was really frustrated after my appointment.  I want to be very careful here to say that I think my surgeon is a great one and has a wonderful track record and Im happy I had my surgery with this program, however, the appt. left me feeling upset.

I have followed everything to a tee.. liquid diet 2 weeks before and now 2 weeks after it as of tomorrow.  Had my protein, vitamins and fluids.  I've lost 33 lbs since july 2nd when I started my liquid diet and he had nothing positive to say to me.

As he took out my staples he said.. you really need to get this weight off, It's all in your abdomen which is the worst place to have it.  And I was like well.. I just spent 4 weeks not eating and had the surgery, lost 33lbs in less than 4 weeks, isn't that good?   I wish I would have actually said this but I didn't. I just said well Im on my way.  and he kept stressing that I just really needed to lose this weight.

They did a biopsy of my liver during the surgery and it came back mildly inflamed but no cirrosis which is awesome!  But.. then he went on to say if I didn't lose the weight it would become that and it can cause me to die.  And began to tell me about the patient he saw just before me and her cirrosis and her revision because she couldn't change her behaviors.   I felt awful about this because I knew who she was and we had been talking in the lobby for awhile because he was an hour late into the office.  He may have been trying to scare me or something.. but i just got upset.

I told him I was concerned because at first I could only eat 1/3 of a jello cup and feel full and now I can eat a whole jello cup and not feel full.. and he said.. well Jello isn't what made you gain all your weight, I don't think its an issue.  But my point was I was worried I could eat too much without feeling full.   So I just said eff it and ended my appt.

There is another surgeon there that is really compassionate and warm and I do better with that, he was the 2nd surgeon on my surgery and saw me once in the hospital.  However, my surgeon owns the practice.  I don't know if I should ask to see the other one or not in the future or if this will cause issues and I should just grin and bear it for my appts.

Other people came out of their appointments happy and I came out upset and feeling like eff it.. I want to eat.. I know thats the wrong answer and i didn't but I recognized this stress upset eating thing.  He didn't say one positive thing. like you are doing well or good job so far.. and I just don't do well without positive motivation.

Should I just suck it up or see if i can make it better?

Thanks for your opinions.

Jackie