I lost my way.........

Barb,

You are doing marvelous!  Don't worry about the slow down or even a plateau. They happen and it is natural.  Just don't stray too far and think you can eat like before, which is what I did. The pounds creep back on slowly.    I used to journal alot, but stopped.  I need to start doing that again.

We can all help each other and that is why I love this group of people.  We all understand, and we all motivate and accept each other.

Wow...your post brought me to tears...because I could have written that myself.  And although I'm not 1/2 way back to the "old" me...it's starting to scare me that these 25lbs I've gained (or rather not lost since having my 2nd post op baby) is going to turn into 30lbs...then 40lbs....well...you get the picture.   I too have found comfort in being "normal" and being 5 years out it's easy to "forget" that I had WLS.  Like you no one did this to me but me...and like you it's time I own up to the errors of my ways and take control and charge of myself, my weight, my future.  Thank you for coming outright and saying what I've been wanting to say for the past few months on here...but just didn't have the guts to do.  Thank you.

Tomorrow is a new day...no more candy (unfortunately I've learned to 'eat around' my dumping), no more tortillas, no more chips, just good healthy protein & veggies.  I can do this, I will do this.  AND...more important of all I will begin visiting OH (almost) daily to share how things are going and to get reacquainted with the folks here who helped me so much in the beginning of my journey.

Kristy 

H Kristy,

Yes tomorrow is a new day. We can do this.  We owe it to ourselves and to our children to do this.    I will be posting daily here to remain accountable and not hide in the darkness anymore.  I want this.  I want to get back my motivation and determination.

Welcome back Deanna!!

I know how you feel.  I am in the same boat as you.  I have gained about 50 of the 180 that I lost.  I have had a rough couple of years and some very bad ulcers.  I had one burst open about 2 years ago and had to have emergency surgery to repair it.  I finally came back here several months ago because I knew I could not do it alone either.  I needed support and to be accountable.  I have good and bad days but I know these people are here for me when I need them. 

Stay here and lets support each other.  Us old timers need as much support as the newbies.

Stacie

Hi Stacie,

How are you?  Go**** does seem like a lifetime ago.  I too had a ruptured ulcer and had emergency surgery, it was so painful and so scary.   I still take 4 medications a day for my ulcers, but have not had any complications in 2 years. 

I do realize I need the support and I think moving and not finding a new support group was my downfall.    Well I am changing that now and coming back to my online support group.

I am going to post daily, just to be accountable and to help myself stay focused.  Hopefully it will help others too, to  get on the band wagon and re-dedicate themselves to their journey.

Hugs to you Deanna!!

I too have lost my way, my gain is 25 lbs. at this point but I am steadily gaining and need to nip this in the bud! 

We all need the support and refocus to make better choices again!

Hi Stacie!
Haven't talked to you in forever. I feel so good coming back to my OH friends.  I think we should all keep encouraging each other.   I know you feel the pain that I do, the disgust with myself when I have to buy bigger clothes, just everything.........     I am determined to stop it.  I have one day down, and I am happy about that.  One day at a time.