It's Wacky Weigh in WEdnesday Gus only 2 more days!

After hitting that infamous two/three week plateau, I finally lost 1 pound. Which I will gladly take! I kinda had to remind myself that this isn't a sprint, it's a life-long marathon and the weight will come off, I just have to keep moving forward and doing what I am supposed to be doing.

Good late morning,

You can put me down for a 1 lb loss.  At this stage in the game, I will take anything going down!  I have decided to call my bestest friend today.  That will be the person that I in touch with.  I haven't spoken to him in a long time and I am long overdue to have a good chat. 

Other than that, nothing much.  Waiting for another wine delievery today.  We have so much wine here, but the Holidays are coming, we go through alot then, and also will be having friends over more for dinners.  I love having company and cooking.  It's so funny to see so much wine around the house.  All I do is cook with it.  I don't drink, and you would think I indulge everyday there is so much here. 

I got the bariatric advantage calicium chews today.  Not sure I am that fond of them, but I will try and get used to them.  I need the calcium badly so I will make I do take them.

I am feeling good today.  I think I have rounded a corner in my healing.  I walk most of the time without a walker upstairs.  I still have to think about every step I take but it will come to me again on how to walk automatically.

I hope that everyone has a great day, and do call someone you haven't spoken to in a long time.....love and hugs, Diane

Hello All.

Put me down for -6.2 lbs this week.  Sounds good but Ive been suffering some pretty bad depression this week.  Im going back on my lexapro, seems all I do is cry any more when Im alone, but try to put on the cheerful attitude around others.

Im trying to break off my engagement, I had the talk this weekend, but he doesn't want to so now I have to deal with more of it and us moving out and splitting things up.  Yes my moving is taking forever because he won't seem to do it.  ive been living at my Mom's most of the summer in Long Beach.

This is so not easy... and when I get so upset I can't even stomach mushy foods.. my pea soup makes me barf but Im trying.  Im getting in protein somehow but it kinda sucks.

I've been exercising everyday except for the last 2 days where 1 day I was physically exhausted and yesterday I was mentally exhausted.. so back on the wagon of exercise today, I'm gonna go for a long walk tonight.

Im still looking forward to the day my scale says 299 and I can see that coming soon.. then i'll strive for 249. :)

I have so many friends and family that support me and yet I still feel lonely as hell, I think I really need to find a counselor.. Im looking today in my insurance.  I know I need help through all this.

I also need a freakin job and its so hard, i have recruiters looking for me but wow.. I will have been unemployed for a year on nov. 6th.    While Im using this time off to benefit me, I would surely like to be getting paid and saving for plastics too for the future.

sometimes its hard for me to look to the future to see how far I will have come, I know Ive done well so far, I guess I sometimes get scared.

thanks for letting me vent my true feelings here, I love you all and feel your support!

Hugs,

Jackie

Oh Jackie.......I just want to give you a big hug   I've emailed you my phone numbers.  I understand how life can be overwhelming.  I don't talk about it a lot, but I didn't start posting much on here still about three months after my surgery because I had serious depression afterwards.  I'm on Wellbutrin now and it's helped a lot.  

When I get upset, my pouch almost feels like it swells up and it RUMBLES something awful.  I can't eat or keep anything down, so you're not alone in that either.

I know that dealing with life's ups and downs without using food was/is a big challenge for me, as I think everyone can relate to here.  Definitely get someone to talk to, if possibly a professional.  You're not alone.  Please keep talking to us here.

I've so enjoyed talking to you at the LB Coffee events and I'll miss you.  Please feel free to call me if you need anything.  You'll make it through all this!

I have not posted here in a long time so I do not remember what I had put down for my loss. So what I will do is just post what I have lost since January 1. So I have lost 73 pounds so far this year. A total of 159 over all and 107 since surgery which was 11/18/08.

Sue