This is my story.

This is my story. I am having my daughter type it, because my writing isn't too good. I am from Hiawassee, Georgia. I was born and raised there. I am 56 years old. I have one daughter and two sons. One son has gone into the arms of Our Lord. I have a beautiful grandbaby. She is the apple of my eye. My daughter and her husband live in the house in front of mine. She is such a good daughter. She checks on me often. She takes me to work. I work at Ft. Irwin, I work in their commisary. I have worked at different bases for 24 years. My son is in the Marine Corp. He is in Iraq. I am so proud of him. I love my children. I am proud of both of them.I am super morbidly obese. I weigh 426 pounds. I don't like to go anywhere except work and to my doctor appointments. I don't like to leave the house. I am always afraid of people making fun of me. I lied when I made my profile, cause I said I weighed 280 pounds. I was ashamed. Everybody on this board is so skinny. I have to go everywhere in my scooter. People stare at me and I hate it. Little kids laugh at me and point and say mean things. I don't blame them, I blame their parents for not teaching them social manners. When I came on this board I thought I would find acceptance, but it came at a price. I wasn't 100% truthful. I didn't let my guard down. I hid behind my monitor and computer. I was afraid you wouldn't accept me, if you knew my story. I had been reading all of your posts, and I wanted to join in. But you have your gotten to your goal weight. I won't even be able to have my surgery until hopefully March of 2010. I am sorry for not being upfront about myself, I just wanted acceptance. I am sorry that you had to make fun of me and my way of writing. From now on when I write here, my daughter said she will write for me. But please, I ask that you don't call me a country bumpkin anymore. Here I am, this is me. My name is Rebecca or Becca. Its nice to meet you.

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Becca, you will find acceptance...you have to accept yourself first. Not everyone is at their goal weight. I still have about 40 ponds left to lose. I'm gonna admit something that I haven't admitted to anyone yet. Everyone keeps telling me that I am getting 'skinny'. Sometimes I see, other times I don't. Last month I went to Walmart because I needed jeans. I automatically went for the elastic waist jeans. After picking up a couple pairs, I ralized that I no longer needed the elastic waist jeans. It was the 'fat girl mentality' coming out in me. I bought 2 pair of button/zip, non-elatic waist jeans in size 20 and 18. The 20s are alreasy big on me. I haven't worn the 18s yet. So see, we ALL have things that we need to accept. Please don't leave the California board and reconsider coming out to the Tom's Farms event on November 7th.

Hi Rebecca  March 2010 is not that far away!  Just keep asking questions and beyourself and you will find support, I am sure.  I also want to commend you on the fact that you ARE working.  Some folks at your weight simply hide inside the house or are physically unable to get around.  You deserve big props that you still get out to work!!

Good luck!!!!

Becca,

I don't think people were directly making fun of you and certainly not the way you speak.  The problem is that we have had individuals on this board who have evil intentions in their heart.  They lie, they cheat, they steal.  They are just not good people.  When they finally show their true selfs they are then shunned and usually go away or in some cases are banned from the board by OH itself.  The problem is that because this is an open forum, they come back under different names.  Some of us have been so victimized by these people that unless we know who someone is, unless they have a picture and a true profile, unless they come to events, we just don't know who they are and are very skeptical.

That is the place you fell into.  No one believed you were a real person.  We all thought you were one of the evil ones just coming back to try to stir up more drama.  To be nasty to some really good people.

If you are truly who you say you are then you will be welcomed here with open arms.  No one is shunned unless they bring that on themselves.

As to your weight.  I weighed nearly 450 pounds before my surgery so I know what life is like in that condition.  Everyday is a challenge.  This place, however, doesn't care how much you weigh. They care that you want help and support to get healthy.  I lost about 250 pounds.  I never made it to goal and now, after 5 years, I have gained back about 70 pounds.  I'm not turned away by the people here.  I am embraced.  They are my cheerleaders.  Come to events and you will see people of all sizes.  You will see people who can't get around unless they have scooters, to people who now run marathons.  What this group all shares, however, is the road of obesity and the desire to live a long, healthy life.

So again, if you are who you say you are, you'll be accepted here no matter how much you weigh and no matter how you speak.  But if you are an imposter, until the people here know for sure, they will not embrace you.  All of us here have had to learn the hard way how to protect ourselves from those who have nothing but evil intentions.  I hope, for your sake, you are that 426 pound woman in a scooter with a southern belle accent.  If you aren't her and you are one of the ones not welcome here, well I feel sorry for you.

Stephanie

I agree with Stephanie, there's been so much bad drama here.  It is often hard to believe people are who they say they are, especially when new.

I'm still skeptical about who you are.  You will have to prove yourself to be truthful over time.

Diane C was trying to be helpful and connect you with a friend for support. You accused her of attacking you....are you going to aknowledge the words you posted about her and are you going to apologize for them?

Hi Becca,

I am happy that you have decided to come on the board and be yourself.  There are a lot of wonderful people here, they are not here to judge, but to encourage and be with you as you venture thought this journey.  You mentioned that everyone on this board is so skinny and that people have gotten to there goal weight…This is not true…I believe the word “skinny" just the word “Perspective", the way in which someone may appear to the eye and that we all have reached our goal weight.  To learn the real truth about people it would be wise if you were to go to peoples profiles and read there stories.  There are many many wonderful story’s of peoples journey through this path.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I was morbidly obese myself…I weighed 250 and only standing 4’8", I was just has wide and as I am tall.  Before my surgery, I never thought I could do it.  I was also afraid of acceptance and also I felt people (adults and children) were always staring at me, but once I was honest with myself and let my guard down, I knew I was not going to get anywhere.  With the help of my wonderful family and the people on this board I can say I have done it…I have fought the fight and will continue fighting the fight of be overweight.   I am at a very happy weight now..123 and have just had a breast reduction/lift and I feel wonderful about myself and if you stay here long enough you can also achieve the same. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

As for Diane C, she is one of the most SWEETEST PERSON you will ever met…she stands by what she believe and says it like it is, she will encourage you and beat you up at the same time, she is TOUGH LOVE.  She has been on this board for a very longtime and has seen a lot of things…She was not attacking you, but like Stephani there has been individuals on this board who have evil intentions in their hearts, and as a person being overweight and ashamed that is the last thing you want, when you come to a board for support.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So, with that said Becca…let you guard down and start thinking of number one YOU!!!  You are doing yourself and that beautiful little granddaughter no favors with a guard and feeling ashamed.  You need to take control of your life and today is the day to start.  Let me just tell you a little story of my grandson…I have a grandson (7) and a granddaughter (2), they also are the apple of my eye and my grandson has been worried about my weight for awhile…and I deiced that tomorrow may never come if I don’t take control of my life.  I didn’t tell my daughter or grandson I was have RNY until the day before my surgery, I just thought my daughter would not approve and my grandson would be scared for his grandma…well, both my daughter and grandson were very supportive.  I only see my grandson on the weekends so as weeks would pass and the weekends would come he was always excited to see if or how much weight I would lose…then on one weekend…I went to pick him up at his house and he ran outside and just stood there and stared at me with these big wide open eyes and said…."OMG, grandma you are skinny", now I still had not reached my goal, but that is what his little eyes saw.. he also put his arms around me and said “grandma, I can tough my fingers…I said, you arms must be getting longer and he said, no grandma, you are getting skinny"..so don’t worry about what people think or if they stare…just remember that beautiful little baby granddaughter of yours….do it for her, because tomorrow may never come!!!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Now, stay here for a while and get support you came here looking for…Also, please reconsider coming to Tom’s Farm…bring your daughter her husband and that beautiful granddaughter and I promise you will be overwhelmed of the love and support you will receive from this great group of people

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Best of luck…Michele

 

 

I was trying to edit my post, but for reason I can not...
I would like to correct what I saidn in the 3rd paragraph...

….She was not attacking you, but like Stephani there has been individuals on this board who have evil intentions in their hearts....

It sounds like I was saying “Stephani is one of the individuals on the board with evil intentions in their hearts….SORRY Stephani…I meant to say…"but like Stephani said…again sorry stephani.

I think you edited something Michele.  I don't know what, but something.  LOL  As for me being evil, oh I can be when the cir****tances are warranted.  Just ask the biatches who hate me.   I can keep up with the best of them when the need arises.  Fortunately, everyone on the board now just seems to play really nice together and it's a pleasure to watch the shenanigans that go on here.  You all just make me chuckle so much and I love that.

Hope you are feeling good today and behaving like a princess should.

Stephanie

Thank you to everybody *****sponded to my story. I got plenty of replies in my mailbox ( I finally know what a PM is!!!), and those who showed support  here. I do apologize for my actions. They were not the actions that a 56 year old grandma should be doing. I apologize to everybody that I responded to and if I hurt your feelings, I am sorry. I am sure you feel the same way, and I know you will respond in kind. You natually assumed something about me, but what made this attack unique is I haven't seen you attack anyone else with such a vengence. What did I do to upset all of you so much? Did I come in here with too much knowledge about the surgery, because of my family? I am still new here. This is MY journey, not my sister's or my aunts or even my brother. I know what they went through, that doesn't mean my journey will be the same. I have a whole wagon of questions. I just didn't want to throw them all out there without treading water first. I put all of this behind me now, as one of the people *****sponsded said we should. I hope you realise how guenine I am when I say I am only looking for support, answers, acceptance, and hopefully gain a few friends in the process.