I don't know how long I can hold on...long vent

Hey Nathalie,

We talked on the phone. Remember if you need anything, I mean anything just let me know.

For sure I will and thanks for talking to me so long :)

Hang in there kid!  I'll be praying for you and try to keep a positive frame of mind!  Think of many other things other than your tummy (I know, easier said than done).  I know when I get down in the dumps, I start making  lists.  I know, weird..........but, it works!  The list that works the best is the list of ALL my blessings in my life and when you read that list over and over and over the sheer magnitude of it overwhelms the negative each and every time.

You have so many positives!  Your winning spirit is the main one.  Your boyfriend.  Life.  Springtime.  Good walking weather.  The list goes on and on and on and on! 

Smile friend.  A year from now (hopefully) this will be a distant memory and you will be doing a whole bunch of fun stuff.  Ride a Harley (like me), go Abalone diving, ride a bike, run, chase kids / grand kids, etc. 

Hang in there.  You will make it through this!

Thanks. I am trying my hardest to hang in there but each time something happens it gets harder and harder. In a way I hope that all of this worrying is for nothing and that I am done with this problem.

I have a lot of people trying to distract me and for the most part it is working. So I am not as stressed out as I was when I first got home from the hospital. Thanks for the prayers and I will keep you updated :)