I am sabataging myself with every bite and i know damn well I'm doing it

Hi Kim,

I can totally relate with what you are going through.  And, it will pass.  2 years ago, I went through something extremely tragic, and in my grieving, I ate chocolate cake.  I ate it because I knew it would make me dump and make me pass out.  And, it did the trick.  It was what I needed right then and there.   I just didn't let myself  make a habit of it.  And when I got through what I was dealing with, I got through with the emotional eating..  I realized what I was doing, just as you realize what you are doing.  You arent' in denial, you aren't ignoring it.  You are saying.. this is what I am doing right now, because I need to. 

So, if that is what you need for right now, you do that.  Just make sure you don't continue it.  You will get through this, it will be hard, just know, we are here for you.

Take care,

Renee*