True Confessions

This is a new tread that I thought we should start. You can come here and tell all about something. Confess something that you did or didn’t do this past week. This could about food, feelings, friends or family, do's, or don't. The only rules are lets try to keep names off the post. If you are talking about someone from the boards NO NAMES! Also, we are confessing our crimes, so NO FLAMING!!! We know it was wrong, that is why we confessing. I will post this thread every Sunday, so we can start the week off clean and fresh. I will post it around 8 PM, due to work.

I will go first……..

I love my family and my one sister cut herself off from the family for a long time, only coming around when she wanted something, and I would fall for it every time. I think yah! She wants to be apart of the family again, only to be slapped with her wanting something. It hurts me every time.

Well a few months ago she started coming around, and for once I didn’t jump into the flames. I have been waiting for the bomb to drop. Its been 2 months and she is just being my sister, not asking for anything, or wanting me to do something for her. (pay her bills). We have been having tons of fun being sisters, and watching movies and running all over town.

I feel very guilty about this and yet scared at the same time. I want her to be apart of my family and to stop worry about the past. So as of now, I will stop looking back and stop waiting for bomb. I am going to enjoy my family.

Love it and even better its on the CA  board!  I copied my reply to a post about confessing our sins.  Added to it tonight!

Oh thou OH group how I have sinned....
1. I rarely and I mean rarely exercise! I do make a point of parking at the end of parking lots and I am walking a lot a work but my treadmill is dusty. 
2. I eat  sh.. the day before my period.  Confirmed this again yesterday as my friend came visiting today and I all I wanted yesterday was salty food. No binging or anything but had some fries (yes fries ;(  ok only 3 and they were the best three fries I have ever had!) and a Sweet & Salty granola bar yesterday.  BAD choices I know but it was all I could do to maintain my cravings.  So I have absolutely blown it 6 times now in 6 months (one day a month is seems to me a pattern the day before the period!)
3. I have become size obsessed. Was thrilled to go from a 22 to a size 8 or even some 6's. Now all I can think about is will I be in 4's by summer.
4.  I just want to run up and  tap all the heavy people that I see in stores huffing and puffing, who can barely walk on the shoulder and say "Let me tell you a little secret about WLS..."  I just want to yell it from the roof tops, take an ad out in the paper and tell people about the worlds best kept secret.  
5. I have had negative thoughts about two of my really good friends. Been thinking a lot the last few days about transfer additions and researching others blogs on the subject.  Not for me I promise!!!  One friend is 4 year post op RNY. She has been drinking increasingly more and more and has also started smoking!!  Hubby and I think she has also gained some weight.  Another friend is over a year out, has been drinking more and more, s making poor food choices and just had to have her gallbladder out.  A girl at work has a WLS friend who is also drinking and she has been asking me questions about how drinking affects us WLS folks.   I was not a big drinker before WLS (maybe 4 drinks in a year!) and have "tested the waters" with two drinks at the NASCAR race in Sept. since my RNY.  Have NO desire to drink anytime soon especially since it gave me diarrhea so bad.  Aren't my other two RNY friends getting the craps after their alcohol binges? Doesn't it make them sick?   You would think they would and it would keep them from drinking.  (If either of you two read this its no secret as YOU know I have been on your case about it. Love you guys but quit the drinking and smoking! We are all really worried about you guys!)  Makes me really not want to drink again.  Probably a good thing!!

Bad I know but we are confessing sins without punishment right?

Great Post, thank you for playing along.
I think you have hit the nail on the head with that transfer. I think that will my first topic after the frist of the year. I think in some way, we all have that within us, just not all us let it out. YET!

Thank you once again and I hope it helped you, even just a little.

NO punishment is right. And some one does come after you here on PM you let me know, I will pull there spilt ends for you.


LU

This is something I can definitely participate in. Especially since you started with family.

Right now I am in Wisconsin visiting my mom and step dad. Usually I can only handle my mom for a few days, she was very smothering when I was growing up, and still sees me as her little girl. I know, what parent doesn't do that to their kids, right? Well I've been here two weeks, due to be out here for 2 more then I go home for thanksgiving.

My mom can be so loud and annoying sometimes! I love her to death, and have no idea what I would do without her in my life, so I don't want everyone to get the wrong idea. But like this morning, we were out late at the bar up the street for one of my mom's friends birthday party. I don't know what time we left, but it was pretty close to bar time (2am here). I don't drink, but this morning around 7 am she comes into my room and starts singing, in her VERY loud, baby voice (like she sings to her dogs).

MOM I'M TIRED, LEAVE ME ALONE, PLEASE...

She was just being good ole' loving mom. But after the next two weeks I am definitely going to need my alone time.

Love to all you parents out there, I don't know how you deal with teenagers and irresponsible kids (I was both to my mom). Kudos to you, because from hearing the stories on the boards, all of your youngen's (for the most part, sometimes I hear stories of otherwise) have grown up to be respectful and tolerant young adults. I wish I could have that tolerance right now.

Thanks for posting this thread, Lu!!

Paula.......

Thank you for posting. Yap, we love our family, and yet, gosh, give us a break. Sheech....

I hope that this outlet helped you and that you are able to cope for the nice two weeks.

Lu

Hi,

Thank you so very much for doing this. I'm a screw up, so much that I have no idea where to start. Not only with family, friends and food but anything else you could name. I honestly can't confess my stuff, there is way too much but I want to thank you for posting this.

Hugs,

Lauren

Pick on topic and talk about it this week, then a another for the nest week, and so on.

Remember, this is to help clean the sole. It might help or it might not, but we will NOT judge you.

Or if you rather not post here, but need to get it, you can post to me in a PM, I will not breath a word of it to anyone. This is open to anyone that does not want to post here, you can PM me. Just getting to talk about it, (or type) might help.

Thank you for posting Lauren. Good luck in all you do. Have a great night.

Lu

Last sunday I made a promise, to someone, to exercise several times last week.  I did not do it.  But this is another week to take it by the horns.  I just want to get back so bad, but I guess other things are more inportant than taking care of myself.  Need to work on that !

LeAnn,

I understand what you are saying, I have spoke with Liz about this TONS. I always put other first. I guess I should work on this also.

Yap this is a new week. Take it one day at a time.

Best of luck to putting yourself first.

L

Lu,

This is a hard one as normally I tell all, you just have to ask.  So let's see, 

1.   I dye my hair
2.   I have a mustashe that I wax (menopause)
3.   My nails are fake.
4.   My farts do stink, and no it is not always my husband.
5.   I have a secret crush on Darrel. (sorry I wasn't supposed to name names)
6.   I am afraid of the dark

That is all I can think of right now.  I feel better already!  Thanks for making this post

Rhonda