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Checking in: My stepson Chris had his WLS in Philly on Thursday. Ed and I got a hotel room and stayed until yesterday to be with him. Of course, in Philly it's kinda hard to find WLS friendly food. Since I don't dump, of course I had to eat the icky continental breakfast food...not alot of it but still... I ate a danish. I'm sorry. I won't ever do it again so please don't make me go to my room. I paid. Dearly. That was Thursday morning. By 6 pm, I was so bound up and in so much pain. Felt like I was sitting on a rock. I was good after the danish, though. I had my protein drinks, my high protein foods like meat, eggs, cheese, etc. But the danish never moved. Not one bit. It stayed right there and blocked the "doorway" so nothing was going anywhere. About 36 hours I suffered. Even though I ate the dang thing one bite here and one bite there, over a period of 4 or 5 hours, it still haunted me until the next day. Lesson learned. I guess you could say I dumped. Didn't get sick, just couldn't "go." I thought for sure I gained a whole bunch of pounds back but I didn't. Whew. BTW, Chris did really well. Had him doing laps around the floor the same night of his surgery, and got him up yesterday too. He seems pretty pumped about it. I am so excited for him. KathyG

I tried a bagel early out in my journey because I was at some office convention thingy....and let me tell you brick on my chest! Yuck. I have never went back to them. Lesson learned. I wish I had a negative adversion to a lot of foods but I haven't. I am like Joanne, can eat anything! Glad everything is going well for you. Keep with the program....for it is what gets us were we need to be. Debbie

Just me checking in. Let's see what is new !!! Where do I start???? I can eat anything and not dump. I have come to the conclusion I have an eating disorder and started going for help with that. I was off track bad eating to much and eating chocolate ( my comfort food ) . I gained 11 lbs in one month. I cried for 2 days feeling sorry for myself then I went into action. I'm back journaling and counting calories. Taking it one day at a time and trying to do my best. I am on day 3 of exercising. I know it takes 21 days for a habit to be created and that is my goal. I know I am not alone with these struggles but at times it really feels like I am. I wish I was in the 85 % that dumps but I'm in the 15% who doesn't. How lucky am I ???? Debbie is doing good, She is down 73 lbs and still dealing with the navel problem but it is getting better. Well until next time. See you lighter. Joanne

Hugs GF, I feel your pain all too well. Its hard with a gain, its hard to know you don't have something that will keep you away from the things that destroy you. Glad you are getting help, doing the exercise thing and taking care of you. You must remember you are important...I know I know I should take my preaching as well. Its hard, especially when you are a caregiver, and trying to live a normal life with activities and such. But somehow we have to find that time. Get back to the way it was our first year out of surgery where all we did was for us. We wanted change and needed it. We got it and well don't we still want it the same way? Its a good question to put out to the group I guess.....Be good and see you soon.... Hugs and Fleece Blankets Debbie

Debbie, I know you are there with me friend !!!! And yes you do need to take your advice. Like me you always take care of others first. Debbie did dye my hair for me today so I did something nice for myself and I am working on getting back to taking care of me. One day at a time. Today a friend at church was talking about letting go of things , they are over. I realize I have a hard time with this. This is one of my struggles. I really need to let go of old rubbish. I don't think my fears will ever go away but I am trying. Yes we still want everything from our first year but in reality our honeymoon is over. It is so much harder now but we can do it if we want it bad enough. My question to myself is do I really want it. I really feel trapped. I think I'm afraid to lose or gain. After all if I lose it takes me somewhere that I know nothing about, Since I weighted 263 at 12 years old. This is why I am going for help. You be good too. See you lighter. Joanne