productive day yesterday.
cleared the back room "4 season" room, scrubbed the floor.
cleared the first bedroom, pantry and did a storage run to clear more "stuff"

moved my spider plants.  they completely filled my car.  mobile green house.  lol.  trying to sell em on craigslist but alas.  lots of lurkers there too.  ok. not much luck.

down to the shed, office and living room.  hmm. 
still no real offers to rent.  lots of tire kickers.  but anyways

feel like the commercial for Pristiq.  i am constantly winding myself up to keep going.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXuMld0VwuU

made dinner when we got home.  made chicken w sesame oil, onions over rice. 

the evening was a bust when he made a comment about something sexual.  i didnt understand his comment.  he got frustrated w me for not understanding.  i got upset w him since i felt inept or unsuitable since i didnt understand the comment.  went to bed around 9. 

lol work called him several times during the nite so neither got a good nite sleep AGAIN. 

but  anyway i can wind myself up and do today. 
i have to clear the shed, charity drop off (wish they would come to me), and hopefully have time and energy to volunteer today at the library. 

I vowed to my husband, I would never move again!  I never realized how much stuff we had accumulated.  I packed up his house and then mine.  I should have invested in Advil for as much as I bought.
Don't worry about what your daughter said.  Mine says it all the time.  I'm only important to my kids when they need something. I can only suggest all those presents that were left, sell them on Ebay!
Hang in there!
Judy

i am moving out of my house.  what a chore.  i am "under water"  ugh!  trying to pack and move on my own is difficult.  never knew my body could hurt in so many places. 

my bf is helping w the big pieces and a truck but i pack and clean during the day. 

gave up on looking for work.  must say never knew volunteering would be so under appreciated.  some places are great to volunteer for.  gotta take the good w the bad. 

liquid advil is my friend now.  if i dont take 2 every 4-6 i must say my body hurts.  i wonder if i have fibromyalgia.  every joint in my body hurts.  stiff.  i wake up w it and it never seems to go away - all day.  pain level goes from a 8-10 to a mild managable 2-4. it wears me out.  i fatigue so easy now.  the pain is in my knees, lower back, lower legs and if i dont listen to it - my neck and shoulders. ugh.  it wakes me up too.  what is up w this? if i didnt know better my (shhh) bowels are changing too.  would like to see a rheumatologist but alas no medical insurance. . life can be ****ty sometimes.

came to the epiphany that my kids dont want to be bothered w me.  as i pack up the house, gifts i have given the kids over the last several yrs were left there.  since i have not heard from my kids in months. . .i get the message.  as my daughter would say. . "you ruined my life" 

moving in w my bf has been an adventure.  he is a nice man.  but i have been on my own for over 15 yrs.  i am set in my ways for some things.  ya know. . .stressful at times.

there are some more issues but i dont want to sound like a whiner that bad.  i am sure it could be worse.

just wanted to blog about my life today.  thanks for reading. 

I hear ya.  I'm the same way.  It drives my husband up the wall!

Judy,

I only agree with you because the mirror says the same thing, but that is still how I "see" myself.

Mike