~~ I am hungry again!! ~~

I remember thinking that for so many years, that there was a thin person inside me just dying to get out. I weighed 354 pounds, was too heavy for a normal scale. The only way I know that I was that big was because I had a patient who was so large they had to be weighed on a special scale at the hospital where I worked.. So I weighed too..I nearly died when that scale read 354. No wonder my legs, my knees, and my hips hurt like crazy. No wonder I couldnt walk 10 feet without being out of breath. NO wonder I was so misreable. I would dream of doing things, going to concerts, going on trips, going shopping at the mall..But I was just too heavy to enjoy life...death seemed better than living so many times..But yet death was not an option. I had a ember somewhere inside me and how many times I dieted I cannot count.. I would lose 20-30 pounds and get "hungry again"...and the weight would come back on. THen I got "hungry again" for life, had a thirst for living.. and well here I am. 3 years after RNY and losing 230 pounds I am living, I am free to be me and that little person is finally alive and kicking... Sometimes I wonder what kept the fire burning, how the ember survived without being totally snuffed out. It has been an amazing journey, but it has only just begun... If I can do this, we all can do this... hang on for the ride and enjoy!!!! Love Dolly

Good for u dolly and congrats on keeping it off. I had my surgery a year ago next month and just joined the century club, in fact 101lbs loss to be exact. I started at 230 and am now at 129 and it feels amazing, I and stay focused every day and will not jeopardize this. My health is better and my mind is better. This is the most amazing journey and I plan to keep travelling like this for the rest of my life. I take each day at a time and remember where I came from. For me I am still an obese person in a skinny body now!! Again congrats and keep going. Regards, joanne

amen girly! 25 days till plastics

Dolly, I have watched your posts for a couple of years and know that You have been thru some tough times during your weight loss journey.....times that would send anybody into an eating binge.....You keeping picking your self up and dusting yourself off, and able to maintain your weight loss.....you are an inspiration to me. So when you are feeling down about yourself just remember there is someone like me out there that you have never met that thinks you are awesome. Huggs, Cory

Dear Dolly Thank you for that riveting documentary of how this surgery has kept you going. Im sure you had many ups and downs as I do now being almost 3 weeks out. Having head hunger and the need to chew. After I read your note I realized I was whining. Instead of rejoicing. Thank you Dolly and may God Bless you and keep you off the special scale. Congratulations Carole