Melancholy

Well here I am .....tomorrow is my birthday...my boyfriend is mad at me (which has become a regular thing these days). I have no plans, no presents and I am another freaking year older. However on the bright side, I have gone from 322 lbs to 205 lbs in a few short months. I do feel so much healthier this year and Thanksgiving did not go bad at all. It was actually the first time in years that I had total control. I didnt overindulge in anything and I even cooked without tasting everything I made a couple of times. I did not get sick and I even managed to have a few things I was not suppose too..but it was the Holiday and I decided a few bites was not going to kill me. Now to my vent. I am been proverbally stuck at 205, 207, 203 for weeks now. I am dying to see 199 and I feel like it is my scales way of playing a cruel ass joke on me. The clothes are still getting bigger on me..so I am losing inches...but the scale just will not drop to 199. I have tried the plateu buster diet....didnt work for me..I have stopped eating and only did liquids..didnt work..i have tried eating all the time...that definately didnt work. So I have stopped. There is no worse feeling post weight loss surgery emotionally I think. You keep feeling like..well this is the end of the road..no more weight loss for me. This is as far as I am going to get. And if it is..I am ok with that..I mean hell...over 100 lbs is nothing to laugh about right? I have gone from a size 28/30 to a size 18/20, my tops are 14/16. Not bad at all. Sorry for the vent..but I am sitting here feeling sorry for myself today when I should be feeling just the opposite.

Gidget, This is just a guess, but if you have been exercising it could be that you are gaining muscle mass. Since muscle weighs more than fat it could explain your loss in clothing size but not weight. Back in 1986 when I entered the Army I weighed 195. Three months later when I left basic training I weighed 202 but was a pant size smaller. Because of all the exercise I had lost fat but gained muscle. Maybe you are experiencing the same thing. Good Luck, Steve

Hang in there Gidget! You'll be there in no time. I only weighed myself once a month but I'm sure I went through stalls. I always noticed a little bit of a difference from time to time if I walked a little longer distance than usual. Congrats on the clothes sizes, thats quite a difference. You'll be at ONEderland before you know it. take care.