Had yet another surgery, #4

Will it ever end???? I went to the ER on Thursday, Feb 8 because the pain had gotten so much worse in my stomach and left side. Friday night Dr. G. came in and told me he was taking me to surgery tomorrow afternoon. I was floored. This was was my 4th surgery in 10 months!!! Yes, I am losing weight and people tell me I look great, but I haven't been able to enjoy the new me. I was told he repaired a hernia, removed some scare tissue and something about the bowel. I was in the hospital for 5 days and I am in more pain and so nausea than I was before I went to the ER. I called my surgeon's office Tuesday to let them know how crummy I am feeling and the nurse said she would talk to Dr. G. and get right back to me. Haven't heard anything yet. I even emailed Dr. G. , but nothing. I have a high tolerance for pain and know my body, but this is beginning to wear very thin on my nerves. I saw my PCP and he had to increase my Ativan because I am having so many panic attacks. They come out of the blue. I never in my life had panic attacks. To make things worse, it has been so hard on my family. My 15 year old daughter has been great, but she wants her mom back. SHe told me the other night that this surgery was suppose to make me healthier but I have been so sick. I was never this sick when I weighed over 300 pounds. I tried to tell her that I probably would have been dead by now and hopefully these are temporary set backs. She is a very talented soccer player and we are out of town every weekend in March and April for tournaments. We are traveling to Birmingham. Dallas, Memphis, North Carolina and I need to be with her, but I am a little hesitant that something else could go wrong. SHe has been playing soccer since she was 4 years old and I have only missed 2 tournaments and they were last year when I was still having problems. The hardest thing about feeling so crappy all the time is that my finance and I (really, he decided) decided to break things off . We had been together 2 years and engaged for one. We were planning a September wedding, but he could not handle "the bumps in the road" this past ten months. I know that this is probably a good thing to find out before we got married, but we have been through so much, I thought this was nothing. Boy was I wrong. The hardest part is that he and my daughter are so close. She doesn't see her biological father (long story), so he has been there for her and has helped me out tremendously. I only hope he continues to be presence in her life. I know complications are part of the surgery. I did my research. I did extensive research, but it seems that every complication that could happen has happened. I know that I have one of the best surgeons in my corner and it is nothing he nor I could have prevented. It just happens, but when will it stop. Will I have a day where I have no pain or need to take pain meds? It does help to read the other posts and how great everyone is doing. It gives me that light at the end of the tunnel. Well, thanks again for letting me vent. Please don't let this scare those who are pre-surgery, honestly with everything that I have encountered, I would still have the surgery. I know this surgery saved my life. I am young and want to enjoy life again, sooner than later. Take care -Ana-

Wow Bless your heart!! So sorry to hear bout your terrible luck but just try and hang in there and surely it will get better soon. Thoughts and Prayers Mini-me

Hi Ana- Thanks for sharing with us. Now we know what to pray for. I'll truly be keeping you in my prayers. I had a five day stay in the hospital, and after reading about your journey, comparitively, mine was nothing. I believe it will get better. You have the right attitude. Reach out to those who you CAN depend on. It's hard to lose someone you love, but it will clear the path for you to find another source of support. I know your daughter will be disappointed, but in the end, she'll be glad just to see you get better. The trip sounds long and grueling. I would really think hard about taking it right now. Maybe buy a video camera instead and have someone video tape the games. I know it's not the same, but at least it's an alternative. With many prayers, Karen in Kentucky

Ana, I'm truly sorry for your health problems. It is just awful all that your having to endure. I too had to have an extra surgery and it has been quite overwhelming, so I can't imagine life with as many as you. I am sending some prayers your way for some good health and healing power. Try to stay strong and give your body every chance it needs for rest, so that it can restore itself. Good luck honey, Dee