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if you read my story i had to much bypassed for my starting weight, i was eating 6 mini meals aday and i was doing fine,but i found out that i had achalasia regurgitation. i have had the test,upper gi and it is doing this when i eat. i can cough and food comes up. I have lost my voice angela can tell ya that,and dee, i havent been able to talk for 3 weeks now,i do no what i am suppose to do and i do it,but i have had 2 feeding tubes and i am trying not to get one brought in on me...............so for the flamers that think they no me and whats going on................im not starving myself. I was fine till my last surgery. 8 blockages and 2 hernia and another surgery for the same. I made this choice but i am looking for support and i have got rude email from people so thats why i have not bee on..........................vickie

Hey Vickie... Just ignore them haters! If the email isn't from one of us just tra**** BTW I looked at your pics and they are of a beautiful woman. Now to get this reflux under control because you are a bit underweight. Get the problem fixed and then gain about 15lbs. Then you would be a Trace Adkins song.......................................... One Hot Momma If you need anything besides the prayers just ask. ryan

vickie i pray for u every night i looked at ur pictures and u are a very pretty girl and u are so thin im scared for u i wish i knew how to help all i can do is be there for u as a friend and support u in what ever i can if u ever need to talk u can call me any time day or in middle of the night if u just to to cry scream cuss or anything email me and i will give u my number if u dont have long distance i do i will call u back lots of hugs tina

Hey Girl, I just about guarantee those rude emails are coming from the main board. Lots of drama over there. Ignore them. There are lots of people who just need "someone or something" to talk about. Which is kind of sad when you really think about it and put it into perspective. You've had problems, you will get better. I agree with Ryan a few more pounds and you will be at a healthy weight. As far as looks like I said in my previous post you don't look sick or anything. I couldn't imagine having reflux like that - coughing and food comes up? I wonder if you could puree things to a liquid consistency to get in more calories? At least you could have things other than those damn shakes. ack. Things will look up! Katrina

He!! with them. U know what u r going thru, they don't! Wheres the hate coming from? This is supposed to be a supportive board and no one has the freaking right to down someone whose looking for help. I think I'll head over to the main boards to reiterate that.

You are such a beautiful woman, even though we have never talked I pray for you all of the time as well as my other ky friends on here, I agree with the girls about the rude comments most likely coming from the main boards...there are lots of cat fights on there. Good luck and sending lots of prayers your way. Missy

Hi vickie, I am so sorry I have been mia. That main board is scarey, there is way too much out there. Our October board is dead anymore, I just stay here. Like ryan said don't open them if its not one of us. I know you are going to get better. There has to be someone out there who can help. I read your last blog and it broke my heart. Please stay strong you have so much to live for. Hugs and lots of prayers jane

Hi Vicki..I am so sorry I have also been away, I have been taking classes, working and taking care of my sick dad. But I do try to jumpon here once in awhile. You heard it from the gang..so in other words...screw em..don't pay attention to negativity. There is always someone that thinks the world should be perfect and they tend to forget what struggle is all about. Hang in there you will be ok soon, I am sure..Dr. Steiner is a good surgeon.. Hey come join us next month at the bariatric health fair..meet the gang..I think Jane, Amy, Ryan, Sarah, Chris and a few others from the board will be joining us.. Brenda

Hey Vickie, Your profile was one of the first I saw on here when I was just starting this journey...and I was very impressed by you. You are a beautiful woman, no matter what your weight...but I know you want to be healthy and enjoy life...you have a tremendous amount of supporters here on the ky board and we are all praying for you. Just wanted to show ya some love, sweetie...you have had it rougher than most on here, that is a fact... good luck and don't ever give up or listen to those who have no idea who you are or what you are about....I will keep praying for you and your continued journey...

Vickie, I looked at your pictures. You don't look as bad as you think! Yes, you could stand to gain about 15 pounds. I know you are worried. But, I think the worry is adding to the weight loss. Try to focus on SUGAR!!! That's what keeps us all overweight. And, DON'T exercise at all!! Just lazy around and watch TV, read books, go to the movies and out to eat. And, eat all the starchy, sugary things we are not supposed to eat, on top of taking the weight gainer supplements. Eventually it will turn around. Look at it this way --- you have been through so much!!! And, you still keep on pushing forward. You are a fighter and eventually you will WIN!!! You are already a winner! If no one will help you, don't give up!! You have done most of this journey by yourself so far, and what a wonderful job you have done!!! Please, e-mail me if you need extra support. I am here! I too am having trouble eating. I can't eat ANYTHING!!! I can only drink since my last fill a couple of weeks ago. But, I still have a long way to go and I'm not at the worrying stage yet. I do get in all of my protein and my vitamins. I'm not worried about anything else at the moment. But, my family is worried because I don't eat. But, anyway...... back to you...... Have you been to your nutritionist? Please go see them. They can tell you what to eat that may agree with your reflux. I would start there, if the surgeons aren't willing to help. I wish I could help!! I feel helpless too, because I can't make it go away for you. PLEASE keep trying different doctors and nutritionists. Maybe talk to someone who has been through chemotherapy and see what they eat to maintain their weight. I know they have major weight loss issues. Kind of think outside the box...... I would do anything, and go anywhere to get the help I needed if I were you. Who knows, I may be asking you these same questions in about a year or so. We get so caught up in it that we just cant think anymore and run out of options. And, the people who send you rude comments, obviously, have not been through what you are going through. Please don't let them be the reason you don't come on the boards. We need to hear from you and know how you are doing. You have my complete support. I have said many prayers for you and will continue to do so. And, by the way --- I think you are beautiful!! (I would try eating more fattening foods, LESS times per day -- to slow down your metabolism!! Kind of reverse everything you're supposed to do... ha ha And, just lay around and not exercise. Eventually it will catch up. I know that everywhere I went to lose weight, they said, eat less, but MORE times per day to keep my metabolism going. So, we need to slow down or stop your metabolism from burning caloires. And, to do that, you have to get lazy on us... ha ha And, eat really disgusting gooey, fat foods... ha ha Doesn't sound so good now, huh? ha ha And we have all done it for so many years to get to the point we were when we started our journey. Think FAT, SUGAR, BUTTER, GREASE, BREAD, .... lol Oh well, I'm trying here.... ha ha I really didn't think I would be encouraging someone to eat those things! But, whatever works, you know? You can always go back to the healthy stuff when you need to. E-mail me and let me know how you are doing and what you are doing, okay? Remember, eat less times, but eat more food at those times. See how that works for a couple of days or a week or so. (They told me to cut out the cokes too. Can you drink those? They seem to put weight on too.) I'm trying to think of everything here. ha ha You've probably already done all of this though. Damn, I wish I knew what to do!