OT:Having a pity party for myself, want to join???

Hey everyone, how is everyone tonight? I swear, it has been one of those days. I don't know if I'm coming or going. Theres so much crap going on. First Adams mad and pouting. We had a misunderstanding about something that happened at work the other night. He always jokes around and carrys on, thats how he is. He worked overtime Mon night and had 2 temps on his line a boy and a girl. Adam is always joking and being stupid. Thats how he is. He said they had a few mins of down time and the 3 of them were sitting around throwing sponges at each other, goofing off and he put some duct tape on the side of the girls face (I have no idea why he'd do this, sounds kind of stupid and corny to me) but she got mad cause it "pulled" her skin when she took it off. She went out later on break and was talking about how ignorant Adam was for doing that. Another team leader from Adams team was working over too. He heard her talking about it (hes not Adams boss, he's the same as Adam) and he made some smart comments to Adam about it. I believe Adam got rude and told him to mind his own business. Some how the coordinator for that team found out and after all this happened the girl went to the coordinator and told her that Adam apologized for making her mad right after it happened and the other guy was trying to cause trouble. She said yes it did make her mad but he said he was sorry. Adams been mad about it and I didn't help. When he told me to me, it sounded like he was flirting around or joking nasty (I don't joke nasty or talk nasty to the opposite sex because I am a married woman and I believe that would be disrespectful to Adam and our marriage. He says he doesn't but I know he does joke and carry on) before I found out that it all came down to this other guy who Adam has never gotten along with for 5 yrs now, I felt like it was something else. He got mad because I jumped to conclusions. I can't help it, he's a pervert. He does joke like that. He does around me. Thats the kind of person he is. Do I like it? Not really but he's been this way for as long as I've known him I don't see him changing. He's also mad cause he says his back is hurting again. Well I'm sure it is. Its never going to be perfect and all the dr's he has seen have told him that if he'd lose 30 to 40 pounds it would help alot. He doesn't want to hear that. He's also been out of his arthritis (sp?) meds for a week. I get them tomorrow and the pharmacist said that is probably the main reason he's hurting. He doesn't want to hear that either. I know we all have bad days and today for Adam has been a doozy. Then I have to worry about my 2 yr old neice Bailey. This is what is really breaking my heart. My brother as most u know has a 3 yr epo out on him from the babys mom. He has to take domestic violence classes and he does get supervised visits with Bailey. What hurts the heck out of me is that my uncle is married to this girls aunt. We've known them forever. Randall and her practically grew up together. Mom called Danielle earlier and since Danielle wouldn't answer her phone mom left her a message asking if she could see the baby sometime. Danielle called her aunt and mine, Melana! She tells Melana that she will let Melana have Bailey one of these days and mom, dad, me we can see Bailey at Melanas. What is THAT? What have we done? I love that baby so much. U know it hurts that Randall did wrong. I am glad that he has to do this classes. He did wrong and he should be punished. Also, he got served papers yesterday about 4th degree assault. He has to go to court on that at the end of the month. I love my brothers but their not perfect. But this sweet little baby. What have I ever done to her or her momma? Mom and dad haven't done anything wrong and they're being punished. Why should we have to go to Melanas just to spend a little time with Bailey? That makes me feel like we've done wrong and we can't be trusted with her. I've begged mom and dad to call someone about Grandparent rights. They won't. They're just taking this crap. My brother never comes up here, he never even calls me so why couldn't it be possible for me to pick up Bailey for a few hours and have mom and dad come here? Randall lives with mom so I see why that wouldn't work. I wouldn't tell mom how I'm feeling right now, sitting here bawling my eyes out about it cause her nerves are fried. When she told me that we'd have to go to Melanas to see Bailey it just killed me. I love Melana, she's married to my uncle. I babysitted their 2 kids for years. What hurts is not, Melana, really its the fact that I'm Baileys aunt also. What is wrong with me? What have I done? We shouldn't be punished because my brother did wrong. I'd do anything for that little baby. I love her so much. I'm sorry. I had to vent and I can't do that alot cause I'm afraid it'll get back to Adam. I do love him but he can be a butthole sometimes. I guess thats the extent of my issues tonight. Besides sitting here worrying if Adam got into it with that guy at work or if everythings ok. He's gripped about him since Tues morning and took it out on me and then tonight right before he left he said oh well, I might as well leave it alone. I could just scream sometimes. I really could. Love Ange Please keep Bailey, Mom, and Dad in your prayers. Bailey is just a innocent baby and doesn't understand why all this is happening. It just hurts so bad. I just want to hold her but I don't even know when I'll see her again.

Hey Ange, hang in there. You have alot on your plate right now. Find a quiet spot where you can clear your mind and relax. My prayers are with you. Jane

Thanks Jane. I feel bad for complaining. Theres always someone out that having a harder time and I shouldn't complain. I've been very blessed. Adam is and can be a butthole, but I'm no angel. I've got a temper and a smart mouth myself when he pushes me so far. Then my precious little niece. U know some lady on the main boards just replied that my family shouldn't get to see Bailey unless we go to my aunts! Like we're the ones that did wrong. He did wrong, there is no excuse for hitting someone. But u know what, she since got this epo on him she's not supposed to contact him either and she's been emailing him, texting him, sending messages thru her friends that work with him that she still loves him and she wishes she hadn't started all this. She needs to leave him alone or he'll get in more trouble. He's ignoring her cause he doesn't want to get in more trouble. Its a mess. These 2 are worse than any soap opera I've ever seen. I feel for the baby and I miss her like crazy.

Ange, I don't have any real advice either, but wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about you tonight and saying a prayer for you! You are such a good hearted, kind person and you deserve a break. I'm sorry that you're stressed out to the max right now, but I do agree with Jane. Try and find yourself a little corner to get your wits and take a breather. I'm sending prayers your families way-- You take care hon--(email me if you need anything) Dee

Thanks Dee, it helps to vent. I feel better for getting it out there. I can't really talk to anyone around here cause I'm afraid it'll get back to him, so I bring it to the boards. Some people might not want to hear it or care, but it gets it off my chest and helps me to get out and to be able to feel better and relax. Good night and thanks Ange