Struggling

Thank you Becky! I am taking something believe it or not (Can you imagine what I would be like if I weren't?) During this time of the month sometimes, the hormones override the Zoloft. I'm not a stay-at-home mom (I'm not strong enough for that ), I work for BancorpSouth as the Sales and Customer Service Coordinator. It's my job to train and MOTIVATE our employees (Can you believe that from the way I've whined today?). I motivate and encourage people all day and when I get home, there's nothing left and a husband and two boys aren't the motivating type (I've just given them some more and used food to make me feel good) I've taken today off b/c of the famale pain. Every few months I'll have one that's real severe. (Eve has a lot to answer for one day!). I'm going to try to be strong and I'm about to go read my bible and pray (Wich is how I should have started out). That's a part of my life that I know I'm not strong in. (It's like I'm almost scared to go to Him. Being a preachers kid that doesn't make much sense - or maybe it does). Anyway, Thanks again! If I'm able to make it I know it will be with God's help and I believe He brought me here to you guys.

Hi Joy, I am still pre-op, so I can not pretend to know what you are going through, although I can imagine. My mom had surgery in November, and she has to deal with alot. She takes care of my g-ma who has dementia (she is the only care giver). She also has to deal with finding out that my dad was just diagnosed with melanoma (again). And it is in his lymph system which makes it not that good. So now would be an easy time to fall off the wagon, and emotionally eat. I am not saying we have to go through the above stuff to emotionally eat. Heck, I stubb my toe, and think I need to eat I have heard many people say food is our drug, and boy ain't it the truth!!! Now imagine going to an AA meeting and saying, Ok, I know you are all alchoholics, but you need to drink one ounce of alchohol everyday. You can't drink more and you can't drink less. Even on the days that you really just want a sip more, so sorry, but you can't. Do you know how many would fall off the bandwagon. And yet, this is what people with WLS have to deal with everyday. Ok, so you fell off.... Now, just get your booty back on here with everyone, and dust your butt off. No looking back.... NO LOOKING BACK. Today is today... not yesterday! Good luck.... light up a heating pad, close your curtains, shut your door, turn off your light, take some tylenol, and go to bed... You'll feel better in the am... Hugs, Connie

Joy, Honey we are all right there with ya. Girl almost every day since about three months out (when I got my appetiate back) from surgery has been a struggle. I struggle not to fall back into the bad habits that I had before surgery. Esp with fast food. So dont think you are alone girl. Thank God we have this board we can go to and be honest about what is going on with us and we are NEVER judged by these folks. Because they have always and prob always will be having the same struggles. Your food for the day so far looks great. I dont see anything wrong with it at all. Besides what would you have eaten already by now before you had this wonderful surgery. I try and to think about it that way cause I know that I do not eat ANYTHING like I used to. I hope you feel better soon. Just take a deep breath and take it one second at a time girl. Love ya Denise

Thanks Denise! That's exactly what happened to me. I fell back into my bad habits (just to make it through the day) and lost sight of the goal. I will take it one second at a time. Love ya JY

Thank you Connie! I needed that! (The butt kick and the reality check ) How is your Mom doing? Did she have WLS? I'm so sorry about your dad and your grandmother (It sounds like your plate is full!) Thank you for your encouraging words and advice (you guys don't know how much this means to me) Ps I love the alcoholic analogy and the toe stubbing JY

Hi Joy, Yes, my mom had wls in november. She had the RNY done. She has lost about 90 pounds. 2 months ago she was laid up in bed from really bad pain, they are still unsure, but think it had something to do with restless legs, and sciatica. She could not do anything for 2 months, so I don't count those 2 months. She works out alot and eats pretty good. I live 1200 miles away from her, and worried, cause it sounded like she was starting to graze and maybe eat to much at one sitting. She said she can eat about 1-1 1/5 cups of food at a time. She doesn't measure, and I think her eyes deceive her, cause she says she eats a thingy of yogurt and is full. The thing with my dad is just in preogress... we are still in the info finding stage. My surgery depends on him... cause if my mom needs me, I will be here in a min... so I can't risk any complications or healing time needed from the surgery... but it will happen eventually I am sure. Good luck, Connie

I'll be praying for you girl! Call me if you need me! 601-577-6989 JY

Joy... We all have days like this. Today was a day from hell for me too... My daughter and I had a rough morning and when mornings start out like that --the day is ruined. These are the days you want to just lay in the bed until the day is over. I am proud of your exercising too. I think it is a great stress reliever. Weds will be a better day for all of us... Just think... school is fixing to start back.. WOOHOOO

Thank you Christine! Coming from you, Ms Excersize Queen, that means a lot. Today is Wednesday and it is better! I went to the doctor this morning and got some medication I can take and work and I got a B12 shot (he said to take every 3 weeks). I hope your day is going better too! JY

I am more like a princess in training...I am far from the exercise queen! That title belongs to Melissa. I am just getting my routine going...