Update
I haven't been on here forever..I know. I got poison sumac really bad and have been on pills that make me sleep all day. I did all my tests on Oct 10th. Glad I got those done. I found out who my surgeons gonna be! Dr. Naziri. Never heard of him before but I'll be meetin him on the 19th. I've been really depressed lately, so I'm not really enthused about it. I hope its just depression gettin in the way of my real emotions. Yeah, I probably need to go to the doctor and ask for some anti-depressants (which I'm suppose to be takin on a regular basis but they're SOOOO expensive! Even with insurance.)
I haven't been goin to the gym. I think I've gone twice in the past two weeks. Just have no drive. I know I've gained weight back and I dont even wanna get back on the scale to find out how much. I hope things start to look up. I really want that "drive" back.
Shelly
((((Shelly)))))
I am so happy to see you posting with us again! I was the SAME WAY just before my surgery! I felt like I was dying, ate like every meal was my last and just could wrap my brain around the fact that this is going to happen for me! Fret not, dear. This too shall pass. It is the passing of an old lifestyle. We mourn it like the death of a close friend. It's a normal human reaction to the decision you have made to change your life. We always want to cling on to the old, even when it's bad. (I could write a book).
Remember: KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE PRIZE. It's coming!
Please call me anytime (336) 578-2582 and I will listen. I work a lot, so if I am not home when you call I will return your call you as soon as I can.
Love and big hugs,
Diane
So glad to hear from you again, Shelly!
I agree with Diane, that this is a normal way for you to feel. We send ourselves negative messages that we are doomed to fail, I think through fear that this won't work for us. We are so conditioned to failure that we try to "cushion the fall" by constantly preparing ourselves for failure. That is because we have been disappointed and hurt so many times in the past. I am still doing it to myself. But the fact remains, and someday I WILL know it in my heart and in my head, that I have continued to lose weight, that I have not gained any back, and that this surgery WORKS!
Keep touching bases with us, please, as it helps us to identify with each other. I tend to isolate when I am feeling low and then tell myself I am the only one who feels this way and that makes me feel even more alone and even more hopeless. Sometimes, it is work to post our feelings here, but it is the best thing we can do!
Wish you all the best on your journey!
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