Sadness and shame

Thank you everyone for the wonderful support and encouraging words!   I am feeling so much better today.  I must say I am not one to cry a lot and am a little surprised at how deeply I am feeling my emotions regarding this surgery.   Everytime I sit down to prepare a piece of paperwork to mail in or to read something about the surgery, the tears just flow.   Today everytime I struggled to get up of the couch, or everytime my knees ached, or I struggled to get up the stairs, and everytime I asked my 6 year old to get something for me so I wouldn't have to get up,  I thought, "how nice it will be, how freeing, to not struggle like this anymore."   Looking forward to seeing you all Saturday, Vickie by the way, I came up with the name bungee girl because this is the bravest, scariest thing I've ever done.  I will never, ever bungee jump (I hate heights!) but this is my step off the rim, hoping for the thrill of my life! 

Hi Vickie, It's nice to meet you!  Let me start by saying your feelings are completely normal!  You sound a lot like I did pre-surgery.  I had thought about the surgery for years also, and finally came to the decision that this was the only way the change would happen.  I also was ashamed that it had come to this...that I couldn't do it on my own.  But a good friend pointed out that there was nothing to be ashamed of.  He told me I should be proud, that I was in fact taking control of my life and my health.  I have been in a life-long struggle with weight, and having WLS was another step in that journey.  Now I can tell you in was THE step.  It was the step that ended the struggle, it was the step that allowed me to take pride in my success, and it was the step that changed my life!  :) Good luck to you, we'll all be here at each step to cheer you on! 

Hi Vickie, Please don't feel badly.  I know exactly how you feel, as do most here.  We have all been through it and are here to help you.   I look forward to meeting you Saturday. hugs, Diane