where are all my buddies? I need help

Where has everyone I know?  Since the pilgramage, I don't see anyone posting. ( I havn't either tho) Congrats to all the new losers. I am 3 weeks away from 1 year and I'm having a melt down. This month is emotioally like no other since the surgery, My need for food and all that it stuffed down is taking over my emotional well being.  I cry everyday. I never feel full. I want to stuff this as yet unidentified anxiety that I never let myself feel before. Just want some familiar support.

Hi Jerri I also noted that there have been fewer posts and I am guilty as charged. I have barely had time to breathe between school, teaching at Chestnut Hill, retirement parties, doctor appts and more. I cannot believe I am retiring after teaching little kids for 33 years. I do love teaching this college course but the amount of work is so tiring. 
I am sorry you are having a difficult time. The emotional stuff is so powerful and sometimes so hard to figure out just what it is that we need? We are so used to grabbing the food for comfort. Do you see a therapist or take any meds? It really does help. 
I am saving clothes for you. Do you want to get together or wait for the meeting at Heather's?

 Hugs for you. Arlene

Hi Arlene..what an exciting time for you.  I know it's what you wanted and it's happening. I would love to see you at Heather's and am excitied about the clothes. The 16th is my anniversary, but I am still planning on coming..never thought I'd be the one to say..I need support. I am pretty darn insighful and i dont know what the)(&*&&*( is going on here. Well, I do have glimmers of an idea.   scary and painfiul

WELL-I DON'T KNOW WHAT PILGRIMAGE YOU SPEAK OF, WE ARE NOT FAMILIAR WITH EACH OTHER, BUT WILL BE IF YOU'D LIKE.   YOU ARE HAVING A NORMAL REACTION TO THE UPCOMING START OF YOUR NEW LIFE.  IT IS NATURAL TO FEEL THIS WAY.  I DID TOO.  I THINK THE ONLY THING THAT SAVED ME FROM THE PSYCH WARD WAS LEXAPRO AND MY THERAPIST.  YES, THAT WAS MY SAVING GRACE CAUSE I TOLD NOBODY ABOUT MY SURGERY, AND HAD NOBODY TO TALK TO AND DIDN'T FIND THIS HAVEN UNTIL AFTER SURGERY. I THINK YOU SHOULD TRY TO FIND A REALLY GOOD COUNSELOR, (ASK YOUR PCP OR INSURANCE CO, OR FRIENDS OR RELIGIOUS LEADER OR SURGEON'S OFC FOR A REFERRAL) AND SEE IF YOU CAN GET AN APPT. SOON TO JUST CLEANSE YOUR SOUL OF ALL THAT YUCK THAT HAS BEEN BUILDING UP FOR SO MANY YEARS AND POUNDS.  I THINK IF I WAS YOU I WOULD ALSO ASK FOR A MED TO HELP WITH THE ANXIETY, ALTHOUGH IT MAY TAKE A COUPLE WEEKS TO KICK IN.  I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT THIS LEXAPRO--I HAVE NO SIDE AFFECTS AND IT IS SO SUBTLE--TAKES THE EDGE OFF!!  LOVE IT AND IT LOVES ME!! BUT GOOD LUCK AND I WOULD BE HAPPY TO CHAT WITH YOU ANY TIME IF YOU WISH.  OTHERWISE I WISH YOU BEST WISHES AND LOTS OF SUPER DUPER MUSHY FUZZY GOOD DOWN HOME LOVIN HUGS!!! LORA 

OMG---DIDN'T REALIZE THAT YOU WERE POST-OP-------SO SORRY.  WELL HOPE MY ADVICE CAN STILL HELP.  BUT CONGRATS ON YOUR ALMOST 1 YEAR SURGIVERSARY!!!!!!!!! LORA 

Thanks so much for taking the time to reply. That's what is soo crazy ..it's the first time in 11 months, I am going thru this and I am scared. I have started with a counselor and have been taking  meds I need. ps.  igrew up in Pgh and graduated from Allderdice. ...g

I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU ARE SEEING SOMEONE WHO IS UNBIASED AND THAT YOU ARE USING MEDS.. I PROMISE THAT THESE THINGS SHOULD HELP!! AND BY THE WAY, CAN I ASK WHEN YOU GRAD. FROM THE DICE?  AND WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE OUR FAIR WEATHER CITY??  WERE YOU RAISED IN SQUIRREL HILL?? WELL, TAKE CARE,  AND MAYBE YOUR MEDS NEED ADJUSTED.  SIMPLE AND NORMAL!! LORA 

yas i was raised in Sq. Hill my bro. still live there :>)

My son lives in Swissvale and his girlfriend is from Squirrel Hill.  I miss him very much.  He loves Pittsburgh.  I am on the other side of the state, outside of Philly.   Hugs, Trish