Some advise or a kick in the pants please....

Hey all, I talked about refried beans and cheese so much Monday night and thinking about it a lot....I ended up getting some beans and cheese from Taco Bell last night....I did water them down some but it was more like puree and tonight I stoped by Wendy's and brought home some chili, put it in the processer, watered it down some but it is still like puree. I am suppose to be on full liquids and everything has been sitting well and must say I enjoyed it. I only have done this one time a day for the past 2 days. Should I beware? I am planning to go back to full liquids after my chili tonight and try to be good until next week when I am "offically" on purees. I guess I am beating around the bush to make sure I will not hurt my staples or cause a leak or something. I have been doing so well that I don't want to cause problems. Did any of you eat something before you should? Oh, btw, has anyone chewed up a couple of fries and them spit them out? I feel so guilty!!!

hello pam,, you are to funny,,,,,yes i did do what you said last,,,, and among other things,,,,i didnt have to eat it,,,just wanted to taste it,,lol....any way,,,i didnt see how long you have been out,,,,but after my surgery,,,dr said anything puree so mostly liquid couldnt eat awhole lot,,,of anything,,,,but i did find that i loved,,,refried beans,,mushed,,,2 tbsp,,1/2 tbsp salsa muched,,,tbsp sour cream,,low fat,,,heated and put some chesse on the top,,,lived on that for weeks,,,,felt like i was cheating,,,high in protine,,,so it was good,,,,but like i said all dr are so different,,,,i think mine new he could say anything puree,, and new there wasnt a lot my pouch could stand,,,,anyway good luckk,,, friends with a pouch,, sandy

I think all of the upstate gals are thinking of me right now!!! LOL! I was a big NO NO for a couple of weeks.. I even was taking 1 bite of a cheeseburger at my daughters 1st birthday cookout when i was like 1 1/2 weeks out!! I was BAD.. I went to chris and was like bawling telling him how i have an eating disorder lol.. it was a down time in my life. I was eating bites of food, chewing them up, spitting them out.. Like ALL the time .. i asked everyone at a post op meeting, if anyone else did that, none of them said yes!!! I was even more mortified then! LOL.. I just cried and cried , ask Dawn, she remembers! haha. i can laugh about it now, because those foods that i was craving so bad, make me wanna now thinking about them.. pizza is so yucky to me, i dont wanna see anyone eat it.. when i LOVED It before! Give it time, it will all pass.. and food wont be your best friend anymore.. It took me a while! Im almost 3 mths out and im just now getting to the point where i feel like i dont have an eating disorder anymore. Lets see, about a month ago, i was really down for some reason, started mourning my favorite preop meal from a chinese restaurant.. i called in an order, went and picked it up.. hid on a back road in a new subdivision and chewed/spit out EVERY BIT OF IT!!!! I was like .. okay now what did that help? NOTHING.. It made me feel worse afterwards. Like more of a failure kwim? But you have to go through that process.. and you will soon be where you wont need the food for comfort, especially when you lose alot and you find the sizes dropping like crazy! I had a very hard time though.. and i ate some no-no's..and every now and then, i still eat some.. but thats the key, SOME. I cant chow down on a baby club plate with fries anymore, but i was able to order one today, take out some of the tougher turkey and eat 2 bites of it LOL.. and it was very good to have that after not having it for 4 mths, and it was one of my fav's. and i did eat a few fries.. but i like the small crunchy ones so it wasnt much. Life doesnt STOP after WLS.. it continues, you will be able to make wrong choices, its just all about how many times you chose to do so,and if you are sabotaging yourself.. I know I havent been getting in my 5 meals a day or my protein supplement.. and i know thats not good. I need to get more strict on myself! Here lately with me and the baby being sick, its been really hard to remember to eat..which is crazy to think a fat girl can forget to eat, but i went a whole day without eating before i realized it.. which is horrible! (dont tell dr. b!) but we just need to take a day at a time, and girl.. honestly (not being of medical dr.) I dont think that what you ate the way you ate it will hurt... but!!! Chris lectured me when i told him what i had been eating, and he said i was in severe risk of rupturing my staples and for me not to tell dr. b what i just told him or it would be ugly.. so!!! with that being said.. Try to stick to their diet.. it will get better before you know it!!! now looking back, it seems like such a far memory but it wasnt but 3 mths ago! which has flown by. Youre doing great Pam! Jen (sorry for the LONG BOOK)

I chewed up a chicken strip and spit it out once.. I wanted the flavor. Sounds like thats what you want too. Clear and full liquids were hard. Once you are officially on purees it will feel like you are in HEAVEN. It did for me anyway. Felt like I was cheating on my "diet" beacause I could eat things with taste. Try your hardest to stay on full liquids as long as you are supposed to. The longer those staples have to heal, the better you will probably be able tolerate different foods further out. You don't want to be one of those people that stays sick alot. Kathy

You don't need a kick in the pants, Ms Pam ... Remember, this is a learning process ... We're changing decades of poor lifestyle choices. It may help to know this ... There will come a time when you can eat just about anything. By then, you'll have the skills to make good portion decisions, so when you get the feeling that you just "h-a-v-e to h-a-v-e" something, just remind yourself that you will be able to have it & more down the road. We all handle these changes differently. I'm 10 1/2 months out & just the other day found myself grazing on Quaker Soy Chips ... Good snack choice, but I did a real no-no for me ... I was eating them watching TV & a found that I had snacked on almost the whole bag (thank God it was the small bag) when I usually eat 2 & 3 snacks per bag. So, back to basics ... If I eat in front of the mindless tv, I put a portion in front of me so that I have to stop at the proper amount. One of the reasons for the different stages of eating after GB surgery, other than the fact that it is beginning to teach you better decision skills, is that your organs have taken a tremendous assult through the surgery. We Lap surgery patients just see a few tiny holes on our tummies, but if you actually see a video of a GB surgery, your stomach has been severed in half with 2 or more rows of metal staples holding it together on both the pouch & stomach sides & your intestines have been cut, possibly shortened, & rerouted so your digestive system doesn't even work "normally" anymore. To put as little stress as possible on these incisions & to give yourself the best possible time of healing, liquids are the best choice in the beginning. The best thing I can suggest is that you take this journey slowly, calmly & peacefully ... It's not to be a drudgery or a fight, & we don't gain anything good by "getting away" with poor choices. I've often told people that they must "make peace" with the journey & the changes. That way you don't feel like you are fighting yourself every day. Instead, it becomes an enjoyable challenge & at days end, we can look back & see so many good choices we made & just a few that we need to improve on. See, you became a success the moment you made the decision to have the surgery. Now, you just have to "settle into" your new lifestyle. You'll love the freedom it actually brings you when you know you have control of your eating choices! Shake off the guilt & look at ALLLLLLLLLLL the good decisions you've made, Ms Pam! God bless you ... Dawn & Nick

awww Pam don't feel bad.. i remember licking the salt off chips cause i wanted some so bad but i knew i couldn't eat them! What you need is a hug not a kick! lol *hugs* to you hun! hang in there.. love Darquise