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Ok, I just spent a good amount of time sorting through some pictures and albeit it was a bit emotional (since my doggies have both passsed on in the past 16 months) But I am trying to look at the glass 1/2 full...... I had them for a LONG time.... and they were GOOD years and they brought me so much love. anyway..... I uploaded a few more pictures, so now i have a bunch. I did make them so that they are only 'visible for 'friends' but if you are 'interested' and have a little time and want to see them.... pop on in... I just want to get aquainted with all of you. so....... there you go. a few of my family, etc.... hugs, Jess

I WANNA SEE AT LEAST 1 "BEFORE" PIC SO WE CAN SEE HOW FAR YOU'VE COME IN YOUR JOURNEY! I'M TELLIN' YA ... MORE PEOPLE SAY THAT THE "BEFORE & AFTER" PICS ARE THE GREATEST INSPIRATION ... & THEN THE PROFILES ... SO, SHARE YOUR JOURNEY!!!! WERE YOUR PARENTS JUST TRAVELING OR ON A MISSION TRIP TO THAILAND? GOD BLESS YOU ... DAWN & NICk

Hi Dawn, Awwwwww, thanks so much for taking the time to view my picstures.... It was so emotional going through them all, because I am nursing a broken heart AND both of my doggies passed on over the past 16 months and I MISS them so much that my bones ache!!!! About my parents...... They left in January of 2006 for Thailand. It is a very interesting story.... My mom was a nurse and my dad a teacher...(in their prior life.. ) And then roughly 12 years ago they retired and opened up a B&B on cape cod. After they closed that they did not want to sit back and do nothing. Well, they have always been one for 'giving back' so to speak and they have always been quite religious...(not sure where I went wrong... lol) I try... I do.... I just struggle when it comes to religion!!! Anyway.... They were traveling and met someone that had joined the Peace corp and spoke to them about it... and this was roughly 5 years ago..... and this was the first 'seed planted' Then they were in church and the homily was all about a mission that the priest had been on, and how he had been to Costa Rica rebuilding homes..... and again.... my parents felt like they were being sent a "message"....... so the PROCESS began. It took 2.5 years of paperwork/blood tests, etc... for them to finally get to where they are today. My Dad turned 70 last June.... my Mom is "29"..... hahaha...... funny how I am 42, and my Mom is 29?????? How can that be, you ask...... I am still trying to determine this and will probably always be searching this out....... lol. My parents make me proud. I could not do this. When I talk to them about my dreams of wanting to relocate my Dad says....."you know...... it is is 105 here today, the heat index in charleston will reach close to this in August......" I tell him.... well, Dad...... I can deal with that, I can deal with anything, after all..... I have dealt with a broken heart and the death of my sweet dear dogs, and I cant imagine anything worse than that!!!! Yeah.... I know..... There is MUCH WORSE...... and I am sounding like a princess in my above comments, but hey..... let me be in my dream world and face life's atrocities as they come.... because I have all of you, to help me through. hugs and friendshp. J.

OHHH, I LOVE LOOKING AT EVERYONE'S PICS ... IT NOT ONLY SHOWS A JOURNEY OF SUCCESS BUT IT SHOWS THE UNIQUE BLESSINGS OF THEIR LIVES ... MAKES ME FEEL CLOSER TO SOMEONE & THAT SOMEHOW I'M SHARING IN THEIR LIVES EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT EVEN IN THE SAME LOCATION. ARE Y'ALL ROMAN CATHOLIC CHRISTIANS? YOU MENTIONED A PRIEST & THE HOMILY, BOTH ROMAN CATHOLIC PHRASES ... I WAS BORN INTO THE FAITH & NICK BECAME CATHOLIC AFTER WE GOT MARRIED AT EASTER 4 YEARS AGO ... NEITHER OF US HAD ACTIVELY-BELIEVING EXs & WE BOTH KNEW THAT WE ABSOLUTELY HAD TO BE "EVENLY YOKED" IF WE WERE TO SUCCEED AFTER ALL THE HURT IN OUR PASTS. SO, HE WENT THROUGH RCIA & I ATTENDED ALONG WITH HIM ... HE WAS ACCEPTED INTO THE CHURCH & I REDEDICATED MYSELF AS A MEMBER AFTER DECADES OF NOT ATTENDING ... YOU'RE RIGHT, IT'S NOT AN EASY PATH FOR MOST TO FOLLOW, BUT I'D RATHER HAVE A TOUGH PATH WITH MY LORD THAN AN EASY PATH (oh yeah, like does anyone every really have an easy path in life?) WITHOUT JESUS. I THINK MS ANNA & MS SUSANN ARE ALSO ROMAN CATHOLIC CHRISTIANS. I LOVE YOUR PARENTS' STORY. WHAT AN AMAZING JOURNEY THEY ARE WALKING! I HAVE A HEART FOR THE ELDERLY ... MY PARENTS ARE IN FAIRLY GOOD SHAPE FINANCIALLY & SUCH, BUT WE'VE HELPED THEM THROUGH SOME ROUGH TIMES WHEN CARING FOR MOMMA'S MEDICAL & DAILY NEEDS JUST BECAME TOO MUCH FOR DADDY TO DO ALONE ... SO, THE ARE THE "LUCKY" ONES, BUT TO SEE THE ELDERLY STRUGGLE AS THEIR ABILITIES DEMINISH ... PEOPLE JUST PUSH THE THEM ASIDE, RUN OVER THEM SO TO SPEAK, LIKE THEY ARE JUST A USELESS PAIN, INSTEAD OF VESSLES OF EXPERIENCE & WISDOM WE SHOULD LISTEN TO & RESPECT. &, FOR THOSE NOT AS BLESSED AS MY PARENTS ARE & WHO DON'T HAVE FAMILY TO PICK UP THE SLACK FOR THEM ... THE ONES ALONE & FRIGHTENED, NOT ABLE TO THINK AS WELL OR DO AS MUCH ... MY HEART JUST CRIES ... I HOPE TO BE ABLE TO MINISTER TO THAT GROUP SOME DAY ... ABOUT ACTING LIKE A "PRINCESS" ... I GOTTA TELL YA ... I CAN WHINE WITH THE BEST OF THEM, BUT WHEN I REALLY GET TO BE A SPOILED "PITA", GOD USUALLY SHOWS ME SOMEONE WORSE OFF THAN I AM, PUTTING ME IN MY PLACE LIKE RIGHT NOW, & I SHUT UP REAL FAST, THANKFUL I DON'T HAVE TO WALK THEIR WALK ... &, THEN GET MY BUTT IN GEAR DOING WHATEVER I WAS WHINNING ABOUT IN THE FIRST PLACE. I DON'T HAVE IT PERFECTED BY ANY MEANS, BUT IF IT ISN'T LEADING TO DEATH, IT'S PRETTY MUCH "THE LITTLE STUFF" & WE NEED "NOT SWEAT THE LITTLE STUFF" ... BUT, JUST DEAL WITH IT AS IT COMES. I'M SO GOOD AT FUSSIN' OVER THE LITTLE STUFF & THEN I REALIZING ... UHHH, DAH-UHHH, I'M JUST MAKING THINGS WORSE THAN THEY REALLY ARE BY FUSSIN' & MOANIN' & GROANIN' OVER SOMETHING I'M GONNA HAVE TO DEAL WITH ANYWAY ... I'VE JUST PROLONGED THE TORTURE BY ******' & A MOANIN' ABOUT IT. YA KNOW, IF I COULD LEARN TO JUST SAY, "OK, NOW HOW DO I GET THROUGH T-H-I-S CHALLENGE?" THEN LIFE WOULD BE SO MUCH EASIER. I USUALLY CAUSE MORE OF THE HARD PART JUST BY MY ATTITUDE. GOD BLESS YOU ... DAWN & NICk

What a beautiful family. I can't wait until you get here. I know you will like it here. You made my heart ache too over your babies. I had two for 16 & 17 years also. They were my first children and they listened better than the two, two legged children I have now. I have a huskey and a lab. I can't believe the unconditional love you get from them. Mine are laying up on my bed right now as we speak with their daddy. Yea, we spend alot of time on the Isle Of Palms. I want to start going out early, early in the mornings and working with the sea turtles. I love turtles. That is my Indian name. Everyone always said it was because I was slow (I am), but then I found out it ment "Tough shelled, strong willed, ever enduring and one to finnish no matter what". I thought, that is so cool, and much better than "just slow". I loved the little guy in the front of the picture. He reminds me of my 14 year old. Peace sign and all. For a while every picture we took, he was doing that. I know you are going to like Susan too. I met her in November when she was having her surgery. I feel like we have known each other our whole lives. She has two doggies also. So, do you have any idea of when you might be moving? Are you going to try and visit first? She may even know of somewhere to look for a job. Verison phone, trident hospital, the post office, some temp offices. Tell me what you are looking for and I can look for you. Oh, and my friend the chiro is going to be needing someone too. Well, thanks for the pictures. You better hurry and get here, I don't think we can hold back the warm weather much longer. Deb

Hi Deb, this is my "tentative plan" all is just in the planning process of course and i am somewhat limited when it comes to $$ flow.... I would like to come and visit and see everything and meet everyone. i have never been there. I have been to FL and NC. I loved NC, but want to be further south. I do not want to live in FL. I have done extensive research on SC. So, I have to a) have my surgery. b) replace my vehicle and then c) get my butt down there.... after that..... I will need to save $$, and then get my resume completed.... it is 1/2 done. I need it "full done..." lol. I need a job. I need a place to live. I need to figure out how to get all of my "stuff" there. I spoke to my nephew today, he was one of the cutie-patooties in the photo and he offered to help me get all my stuff down to SC. But I will need to have a place to put all my "stuff" lol. I am stressing and learning that there is more to moving then just "moving" I dont have a lot, but I have a small attic apartment I desp need A job with health insurance THAT is key. Temp jobs dont usually give you health insurance. If I come there On June 20th I cant stay longer than a week due to work. I dont have a lot of vac time and will need to be back by the 27th (the following wed) in order to get paid. $$ is very tight. I live from week to week unfortunately. I support myself and have about a dollar in my savings..... LOL!!! So, this is all a HUGE gamble on my part. I am so scared to do this, but I am MORE scared NOT to do this, if you know what I mean. I can not/will not spend another christmas alone. even though the family photo was lovely and we were all smiling..... there is much disaray and unrest going on. My sisters do not understand this surgery and have always had natural slim bodies without any work. In fact, I had my surgery on May 9th and my bday was 20 days later..... they all showed up with Pizza and ate it in front of me...... WTF was that all about????? At the time I was too stunned to comment. Luckily through hours of therapy I have learned to detach. This is one of many reasons I need to move away. So...... I am moving....... lol. I will move one way or another. Hugs and Friendship, J.

THE ONLY "GAMBLE" ANYONE EVER TAKES IN LIFE IS DOING NOTHING, THUS, STAYING THE SAME. WIN, LOSE OR DRAW, YOU ALWAYS WIN JUST BY THE NEW EXPERIENCES, IF NOT BY MUCH, MUCH MORE, JUST BECAUSE YOU TRIED SOMETHING! POINT YOUR YANKEE NOSE SOUTH, & DON'T LOOK BACK, GIRL! GOD BLESS YOU ... DAWN & NICk

ok, Deb..... I added a picture of me with my sister...... she is a size 0..... hahaha... YES.... THAT IS NOT A TYPO..... sometimes she needs to go to the childrens section to get a smaller size. in her defense... she is only 4'11 and teeny tiny. and she is pretty gosh darn nice.....(no, I don't actually talk like that, but I don't want to offend anyone..... lol) So...... This photo was taken In December of 2005, I had my surgery in May of 2005. I am sure that some of you are thinking that I do not look that 'big' in this photo, but I feel big, and its all about how we feel...... ALSO..... I was having some pretty severe/serious health issues. High cholest, high blood pressure, and about 5 other things that were caused by being over weight. Truthfully I do not have ANY photos scanned on my notobook/laptop of when I was morbidly obese because I was so ashamed and embarrased. But because I am being so honest with all of you, when I come down there I will bring one or two to share with you. (unless I can somehow muster up the strenth to get my lily white a$$ to get one/two scanned prior and post it) hugs J.

J Just come to visit, we'll help you with a place to stay and we can do it low cost. Remember, only worry obsessively about the immediate thing on your list. Missed emailing you lots this weekend. I'm headed to go help decorate. Mary

lol.... Mary..... you are getting to know me so well "obsessive is my middle name" lol. I lOVE YOU! xo There you are working your butt off getting this weekend together and 'there you are..." thinking about your friends here on this board....... omg. I just ADORE YOU, MISS MARY! If i ever win the lottery...... well...... you will benefit greatly!! And anyone that knows me, knows I keep my word!!!!!!!!!!! BIG HUGS!!