Update

Hi guys.  Finally had a chance to drop in for an update.  Thanks so much for your love, support, thoughts & prayers. As many know my fil has been battling cancer (2nd time).  Things are not looking good at all.  It has spread to his bones and other places, he has pnuemonia, and is a lot of pain.  As we were traveling on Friday night, we got a call that they had decided to call in hospice.  Our trip was a long one as we drove down and we brought the girlies with us and emotions are high.  When we got here on Saturday we went straight to the hospital.  His mind is still intact so we were able to visit & he knows we are here.  This is the first time I was able to meet him and I have to say he is a character & I love him already.  Sunday things started to worsen, he is in a lot of pain, they have started harsher pain meds and of course this affects his mood & personality a lot.  Yesterday he was moved to a great hospice facility here.  It is a new facility, very nice & great comfort.  He realizes he is going and has a lot of fears.  He is very anxious about what he will feel, what will happen when he goes & after he goes.  We are not sure if he believes in Christ or not which is where his fears are coming from.  This bothers my hubby very much.  We did go to visit again yesterday but Dad was very uncomfortable with the girls seeing him like this and asked us to leave.  The girls understand but they are hurting.  I am making sure to keep talking to them and keep their feelings open and letting them know it has nothing to do with them.  I am so proud of them as they are being pretty good about things and trying to be mature and help out.  I am giving my hubby the chance to spend some time with his dad alone and letting him deal with his emotions.  At this point with the meds and such he is so drugged that 'they can't really talk to him as he is not really aware of what is going on.  I know we are staying a few more days as basically we just play the waiting game at this point.  I love you guys and miss you all very much.

Tough experince but glad you are all able to be there and have this time together.  It will help the healing and for more fond memories after he passes. Thanks for the update. At least you have faith and knowledge of the hereafter.  And its there whether he understands it or not.

Courtney, I am sending lots of prayers your way, along with strength and grace for dealing with what lies ahead for you and your family. Take good care of each other during this time.

Courtney - i'm so sorry you are going through this, i've been through it myself.  Please know we are all here for you, i'll keep you and your familiy in my prayers - Lys

Hi, Courtney: You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.  Both of my parents are fighting several cancers, so I have some understanding of what you and yours must be going through.  Know that your friends on the Board are thinking of you!  A special prayer for your husband during this tough time!  Hugs, Cindy

I have said a little prayer for your father in law and your family. Penny

Courtney,I am so sorry you are going through this excrusiating experience, their is none quite as painful as waiting and watching someone you love pass. I lost my FIL to lung cancer 3 years ago and the whole family was there when he passed, it was the most moving experience of my life, if I must say I think it would be much too hard on your girlies at this point it their lives to witnes such trauma. I am saying many prayers for you and am with you in spirit as you go through this troubling time. Hugs, Pam

Good pm Beautiful, I love you guys VERY much (which you know) and have been praying diligently for your safety, your solace and your faith to remain strong in the Lord. I miss you and know that I may not be there in person but am in prayer & spirit for sure. I'm glad for you posting and sharing this incredibly tough time with us. You're a strong lady as are the girls and your hubs. I know in my heart that God will embrace "Dad" in his arms. We have to have faith & believe. All my love....

Courtney, I am so sorry to hear about your father in law. I know you will be a compassionate rock for all and that is really tough! We missed you last night at staple club. I'll tell Sally you are in Florida with your father in law. My heart goes out to you. You are such a positive strength to your new family. They are all so lucky to have you and will always remember how sensitive and kind and helpful you were during this time. You are a real trooper and such a thoughtful person, hang in there!  Ann/McLean

Oh our dear Courtney, Im so sorry you and your family is going through such a painful time. Know the good Lord is with each and everyone of you during your time of need. Prayers are  going up for you all to get through this trying time. And to be with you in your travels. Be strong and know we are all here for you and miss you lots but understand you need to be where you are. Sending big hugs to you all.....