Tired, confused & just plain blah!

It is normal to worry about all the things you are worrying about but when you are not feeling well everything gets way out of proportion........ 33 days is still over a month away and you may feel much better by then. Plus your system is bound to feel run down - and you will still have to do testing etc before hand to make sure you are fit - so try to relax and that might help yourself get better... stress is a very powerdul emotion.... I was worried about what would happen to my son if I died too - but take a look around - we all survived the surgery and the recovery in most cases is really not to bad... Hang in there and vent here if you need to- we are all supporting you! Jackie

I am feeling a bit better other then the normal allergies but it is an early spring.  Thanks for your advice and support.  I am doing my best to make sure I take care of myself and stay as healthy as possible.  Thanks for being here.  It means alot. Hugs, Theresa

Oh, Theresa I just wish I could hug you!  I will be praying for you for sure.  Even without the pneumonia and the steroids, to finally be this close after 5 years all of those stresses would be normal!  I know it seems like more than you can take right now....but look at all of the great things you've already done - you're a great mom (obviously! because your worries are first and foremost about your son...), you have fought through all of your health problems so far and gotten to this point, and you recognize the problems and worries now for what they are.  That doesn't make them go away, but it can help you not become overwhelmed by them. Do you go off the steroids soon?  I hope so.  Maybe your doctor can give you something else? ( I know so incredibly little about medicine it's not even funny, so I have no idea if this is a valid suggestion ;) ) Lots of prayers going out for you tonight.... Sarah

Awww Sarah.  Hugs are always welcome!!!  Thank you for the prayers and the compliment about being a good mother.  I can never hear that enough.  I am on the steroids, at least until Tuesday, when I go see my lung doctor.  I have finally stopped wheezing.  It was so bad and loud that I kept  myself up at night,  which led to 4 or 5 sleepless nights.  I do think, though, that I finally have the munchie thing under control, hopefully.  As you can tell, I do not deal with stress too good.  But I so appreciate you thinking of me even with your busy teaching schedule.  I hope I can be as supportive to you as you have been to me.  Thanks so much! Hugs, Theresa

fist off...WOW...  second off...WOOOOOOOWWW  Okay seriously - DEEP BREATH - it will be okay.  Your fears are very understandable.  You are going to be okay.  Cameron is going to be okay.  Life is going to be so rich for you both when you are healthier.  Focus of the future, what it has to hold for you and your son and how you will be a healthier and happier person.  BIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGSSSSS  :)

Awww lol.  Funny you mention deep breathing.  That is something, in my condition, that I can not do.  Although, I can not wait until the day I can.  Thank you for your well wishes.  I knew you are my Angel for a reason.  Thanks for the hugs and I am looking forward to lunch Saturday. Hugs, Theresa

I must say this is a great group here.  I can understand how you feel.  I too have seen the inside of the hospital, but those have not been by choice.  It has been an alliment that has arisen.  And at least for me, I put my faith in God to get me through and knowing what is happening is beyond my control.  But here I am not, making a choice to have a hudge surgery.  This is something in my control, and so it is affecting me diffrently.  I don't know if that makes anysense.  But I keep my eye on the prize.  In the end, this will save my life.  If i do not get this, I know I will die young, and my children need me.  I think the anxiety you are feeling is very normal. Plus, being on the meds you are on right now, the steriods, also recks havoc on your emotional state.  One of my problems is I am wanting to eat all the foods I will not be able to eat and it is a struggle every day!!  You are doing great!

Big hugs sweetie. You are completely normal in your feelings. Thanks for sharing them with all of us. Let us support you and help carry your burden.Remember that post op your emmotions may be all over the place too as a result of the anethsia and as the estrogen that is stored in your fat cells is released. I'm sorry you have been sooo sick.