What do you call the opposite of a "wow" moment?
*sigh* I can't WAIT to have good weight-related moments...
I just want you all to know that I am laughing about this and not crying because #1 - I know that I'm doing something about it and #2 - I knew that I could come home and post it on here and you all would understand!
So today I had to take the Virginia Reading Assessment (one of those silly standardized tests - think SAT, but all about teaching reading) to get certified as a reading specialist. I went to this high school (with metal detectors!) to take it and was assigned to a room. I already knew that I was going to have to write all of it out by hand, that it was not a computer-based test which is yucky. My worst fears came true when I walked into the room and saw..........
(ok, there's really no way to be dramatic about it in a post) those little desk-with-connected-chair combos! Yep. You all know what I was thinking! So I had to squueeeeeeeze into this little seat - with my stomach hanging over the desk, of course, taking up part of my writing space. I'm trying to squeeze my big butt into that little seat and maneuver into a position that would allow me to write for a couple of hours. Not to mention trying to squeeze down the rows between the desks without my butt knocking someone's papers off. I was too embarrassed to ask for a chair or something, so I got through it - stomach a little sore from the desk poking into it, back hurting from hunching over - and I think I did o.k., so hopefully I won't have to take it again!
Whew! How nice to be able to talk about the drama of being fat - usually I just pretend like it isn't happening like no one else would notice ;) Can't wait to share good stories about being thin post-op. Have a great Saturday!
Sarah

Awww Sarah I am so sorry that you had to experience this. But I can relate. Cameron had his spring party at school last week and since he is in the 2nd grade all they have are those tiny blue chairs. My big tail in that tiny blue chair. Yes, I thought ALL eyes were on me. Then I remembered. In maybe as early as 3 or 4 months, there will be a visible noticeable physical difference in me and then I won't care that all eyes are on me. Heck, I may even want it that way. I am sure you will feel the same way. We just gotta have faith and a WHOLE LOT OF PATIENCE. I am sending you, my new friend, tons of hugs.
Theresa
Oh, Theresa, I feel that one! I teach Kindergarten so I sit in those tiny chairs all day long.... I know I must look ridiculous, but what can you do? I tell myself that even "normal-sized" people look ridiculous in them. Even a 2nd grade chair seems big compared to what we have! The great thing about kids, though, is that they don't care. They may remark, in their very honest way, about my "big stomach" or some such, but there really doesn't seem to be any judgement attached. We could all learn a lot from 5-year olds..... (but not too much, I hope, b/c if the whole world acted like kindergarteners I think I would shoot myself!)
Awww you poor dear. Just remember that we are both on our way to being able to fit in those tiny chairs. And we have the help and support of every one on here as well as each other. And I totally agree. We all could and should learn a thing or 2 from the 5 yr olds. I know I do every day from Cameron, who will be 8 in May.
Hugs, Theresa
I am so sorry this happened to you and glad that you can laugh about it - I so remember taking some classes for an exam and being horrified that I was going to have to fit in those chairs and once spent two hours there and could not get out of it easily - I was so humiliated!! And I remember the sore bruised stomach like you are suffering from.
Sarah - take heart - these days will soon be behind you and you will never have to feel like this again!!
Jackie
Sarah, I have been there before and I know that feeling of oh my what will I do now? But sounds as if you handled it and gotthrough it no matter what. And your day will be here soon, Hang in there kiddo and you will be telling the other side of those WOW storys real soon. Proud of you for being able to be open and coming here to share w/ us your story thats what we are here for to support everyone. Hugs.....


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I'm so there with you! Would you believe that the room I had my pre-surgery nutritional class in had those type of chair/desks. I suppose it wasn't the surgeon's offices fault, it was one of the classrooms in the hospital (not just for obesity patients). But DAMN! Easier desk days are on the way! :)
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Ok, THAT is awful. Did they just not think?!?!
At least they could have had tables with chairs!
The room where I went for my first informational meeting is used just for bariatric meetings and they have these huge bench/chair type things. I kept thinking - "Are we supposed to fit one or two of us on those things?" It was weird.
