Thank you so much

When I hit the button to post my situation and put myself out there, I felt a little sick to my stomach. I do much better at hiding than asking for help and support! And as someone who is almost 2 years out and almost reached goal, I felt like I had no right to be struggling again. But I took the leap anyway and none of you let me down!! I have read and re-read all of the responses, which I cherish. Thank you so much for your amazing support, caring, friendship and love… you have no idea what it means to me and what it has taught me. 

I have made much better food choices in the last couple of days. I’m making sure I get dressed completely and getting outside in the fresh air and sunshine (finally!) when I can. I hope to end today on a strong note with work so that I can feel good about that. And I keep telling the Town Meeting attendees (especially the Chairperson – she’s a real *****!) to get the hell out of my head and leave me alone for now. 

I’m sorry that I have not been offering the support and friendship that you have generously given to me. I hope to get back in the swing of things this weekend and look forward to catching up on everyone’s news. Thank you all so much – I will not disappear again from this amazing group of people!!

You are a beautiful person, Mary. Joe

Mary- Youa re SO very welcome.  I love ya and hate that you are in a funk.  BUT...with hubby gone and the rain, I found it easy to dip my toe in the funk pool, to the point where it was difficult to get to my pole classes.   But, do not EVER think that you have no right to struggle.  You are human and you are living life.  Stuggling will become a part of it, unfortunately, because the bottom line is that this surgery does not fix the brain.  With as active as I am, I struggle each day to make the right choices to be active, etc.  We ALL do.....including those who think that they are of the utmost of succes. We all have our demons and our triggers, so unless you completely remove yourself you will have the struggle.  For us, we are like the typical addict and must find how to change our thought patterns and how we deal with stress, etc.  And it does not happen overnight...unfortunately. But, for me, just knowing you provides me with the support that I need.  I luv ya! 

Good am Mary, I'm SO happy to hear from you today! I wanted to mention something else that really has an effect on you, me and most everyone. The seasons/weather play a huge role in our moods and such. I've noticed MANY of us have come out the loomie gloomies since the weather has improved greatly. Almost a solid week of dreary, rainy, overcast weather and now lots of glorious sunshine! Keep in mind many things affect our moods and that's another culprit. You are such a wonderful woman and I've really been praying for you and thinking about you tremendously! We're here! We love ya!

Mary,  When I was sick in 06. This board rallied around me , prayed for me . I know in my heart that it was these prayers that were heard . I still go back today and re-read all the cards I received .  There is one person from our group here that never falted to send me and cards . I mean at random times I would hear from her. How inpsiring is that !!   There was this one time a package came from her with a cross in it and some other things, I was in the hospital at that time and about to go into surgery. It was that beautiful charm I held close to me into the operating room.  These things would come at the worse times in my life .I would read these words of care and know that if I did not have anyone , I had my friends here .  Embrace the words and hold them close. Know like we said you are loved !  Natalie

Mary, Glad to see you are getting out and the funk is lifting!! You have come so far , remind yourself of your successes, they are something to really be proud of!! By chance are you coming to the Conference in Ashburn? If so I'd love to meet you. I will be with a group from No. VA . and the Warrenton area.  Ann/McLean

I am glad to hear that things are looking up, Mary.  You have a lot of support and friends who care about you on here -- don't forget that!  :)

You better not disappear again lol!!! I added your name for dinner for the 3rd..... so you wouldn't starve lol! It is good to see you coming back Mary! We are all here for you and love you! I need to send you another separate mail this weekend so keep an eye out for it! And take good care of yourself! Jackie