Back from the doctor and need prayers

thanks for the thoughts and prayers.  they are needed and welcome.  i will know more about my tests this friday or early next week, hopefully, and i will update as soon as i know.  i have always tried to be a giving person and in turn do forget to take care of myself.  i am trying to "balance" but it never seems to work out.  i have never attempted to do anything but i have thought of it several times over the years.  i could never do that to my daughter or the rest of my family for that matter.  i just sometimes think their lives would be better without me and then something good happens and i see they would never want to live without me no matter what!  i guess it is just those demons i have fought with all my life.  they are few and far in between these days but they are still there.

My Dearest Tammy...I'm so glad you came here & reached out to us.  You have certainly been missed, honey.  I know it is very easy for us to tell you to try not to worry.  Maybe you'll be too busy to put much focus on worrying what with all the other irons you have in the fire.  What I CAN say is that even though there is a history of liver ailments in your family, that does not necessarily mean it will happen to you.  I am sending you nothing but positive energy that all will be ok or at the very least an easy fix.  Try not to focus on the what-ifs.  IF there's a problem, you will need that energy to focus on what to do next.  As for those little cousins of yours...gosh, how lucky they are to have someone like you fighting for them.  You make for a wonderful champion, my friend.  I do hope you will keep us updated as things progress.  In the meantime, know that you are loved & thought of by many.  Lots of prayers coming your way in hopes that all things will turn out well for you & yours. 

ann, hi sweetie!  i have missed being able to post on here and it is a good feeling to know that i have been missed.  sometimes i am away so long and i see so many new and beautiful faces that i think i am forgotten!  i know better now and i thank you.  i am doing my best to be positive.  there is nothing i can do until i get the results back anyway so i am trying not to let it get me down too much.  i still think about it but it is not "crushing" me like it did when i got the post card in the mail.  i will remain positive!  i will fill you all in as soon as i know something and hopefully i can start posting again more often! huggles, tam

Good am Tam, Thanks for sharing all this with us. I'm glad you've explained about the Vit D. Some folks repeatedly forgo taking vitamins (they admit it) because of forgetfulness or just stopping. Its incredibly important to follow through with the vitamins. In addition, some folks (they admit it) have missed follow up appointments another no no. Its imperative we follow up for the rest of our lives. Also, family history such as yours plays an important in our progress and we should be thankful/grateful we are privy to that information. I pray your results will improve and you will do well with this. My thoughts and prayers are with ya'll on the custody of your cousins. Its jumping through so many hoops and trying to do what's best for the children and in the process its heartbreaking and scary among other things. That you have opened your home and heart to your uncle and the 3 children and are doing so much monetarily and such is truly inspirational. Please keep us posted. Its easy to think of the what if's and worry. However, there are many things out of control and stressing/worrying over them creates havoc in our lives. Again, I know its easier said than done but turn all the neggies into positives and gain strength from the knowledge that you are not alone, we are here for you and praying for you all along the way. Let go and let God! All best!

kat, hey there beautiful.  thanks for the reply.  i am not one to miss my vitamins often.  i take the cod liver oil daily, just as i am instructed to.  we just malabsorb now and i have gotten the shorter end of it this time.  i have been lack on my follow up because my nures practitioner was diagnosed with cancer and the only other one has been really backed up.  plus, i don't really click with her as much so it is not a fun experience.  i have been seeing my pcp and having them do the blood work.  i know it is not an excuse and i am scheduling an appt tomorrow for asap.  i know i need to be smacked for not going but it is my own fault.  you are an inspiration to me and i need that especially right now.  will update soon and you know where i am if you need me! love ya, tam

Glad to hear the doctor is keeping it all under control.  Prayers coming your way for everything.

thanks beautiful!  you know i need them.  tell matt and the girlies i said hi and i'll update as soon as i know something! love ya, tam

Tammy  just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!!   Anna

anna, thank you so much!  they are appreciated.  will update when i know something! tam

I'm sure everything will work out for you, both physically and mentally as you have ALOT going on right now.  BIG HUGS and keep truckin' ahead!