Help needed - big confession

That is a lot of it right on the head.  So many changes & things to deal with and me not sure I can deal with it and being overwhelmed.  I did quit the part time job so that it a big help and would love to do more for myself but just can't seem to get it in.  Every time I try, something comes up, and because of feeling like I have to take care of & please everyone else, I let myself get pushed back. Thanks for being here Ann!  It means the world to me.

Hey Court, I have never battled depression per say. When my first husband and I split there was a down time but it didnt last that long. We all have are issues and it sux to feel weighted down with your own emotions. I have been struggling with being lathargic latley, no energy just wanting to sleep all day and due to that my eating habbit's have suffered which in turn takes my energy from me. I only took my vitamins twice this week and I havent been eating enough. But I got in my med's this am and some good fruit and Im feeling a lil better. I wish I could give you better advice but I sure hope you feel better! O and the smoking thing...believe me, you arent the only one! Brandi~

Girl, a lot of yours is surgery related, the 3-6 week slumps.  Very normal.  Try to keep up on you fluids, eating & vitamins.  It will help.  If you need an extra nap, take one.  A lotof it has to do with your body adjusting to the lessened calories.  It does get better. Thanks for caring.  It helps to know that you are there for me.

Courtney, You need to switch around the order of importance you are in your family without guilt. If you make yourself#1 at least for a while you can help yourself and then everyone else better. I know that is one of the hardest things in the world to do and before my surgery I put everyone elses needs ,immediate and future ahead of my own and that's not good! I neglected myself! That's why I gained weight and didn't exercise and I didn't have hobbies or sports that I liked to do. It's not a bad or shameful thing to attend to your own needs! I feel happier and more fulfilled now and I think my family is better off because my new attititude and different way of doing things is contageous. My family had to rise to the occasion and do more for themselves when I started going to support group and started regularly exercising away from home. Now they are used to doing more things for themselves as they should. My family recognises that I have my own needs too. I am always there for them as I should be but I do not neglect myself any more. I just want to steal you away for some fun!!!! Ann/McLean

Always...wish I could do more for you! Hope you feel much better, very soon...You are too cute to be depressed and it is too pretty outside to be bumming in doors!

I cannot add anything to these awesome folks that have lovenly posted to you . Other than this , being new in your faith may I suggest a great book . Max Lucado's 3:16  Trust me , if you get anything out of it , it will be a renewed sense of joy .  Courtney , God said he would never forsake us . And it is when you are feeling down like now that he wants us to reach out our arms and ask him to get closer . We need to summons our angels that are around us , yes 10 foot tall angels . Tell them your pain , and ask for it to be deliverd .  I talk to God and my angels everyday. Somedays I get my butt kicked back into reality . other days I get love and guidance. Give it a shot ..  Remember those negitives that you hear in your head are all lies , lies driven by Satan and he wants to steal any joy you may have .  I love you and will be in constant prayer for you , as well as others here that are struggling .  Always,  Natalie

I would so second that...I love anything by Max Lucado.  So simply written and easy to understand, not a lot of fancy theology! "And the Angels Were Silent" about Christ's last week on Earth is my favorite.

Thanks Nat.  I will add that one to my list to check into.  Thanks for being there.

Ok....definately NO criticism from here.  I do not have an answer for you, but will tell you what I have experienced in my own life.

In my early 30's I began to wonder what was my purpose in life.  I was not happy with where I was, who I was around, what i was doing...nothing.  I even began to wonder if I was suppose to be one of those people who was suppose to be married.  I was depressed and unmotivated to do anything, because I just did not know what it was that I wanted to do.  I hated gettingup each day to the same mundane life.  The only thing that I did know what that  I wanted to be with my boys, but that was it. I had to really look deep within myself to figure things out.  I mean...really deep.  I turned to faith and it really helped me alot.  It helped me put things in to perspective.  I began meditating and I found that when I put good things out there, that's what I got back.  So, definately look at faith.  It does not even have to be a traditional faith...just find what fits you. There are many really good books out there that will help you.  Oprah is currently doing a book club with one - can't recall the name.  But, I've heard that it was interesting and enlightening. So, based on my experience, does this mean that i think that it is age related?  Not necessarily.  But, I do think that we reach a point in our lives where we begin to wonder what is our purpose and am I doing it??? Keep an eye on this situation, because if it gets out of hand or continues, i would recommend that you talk to someone.  Maybe not open up entirely, but you may need some sort of help in coping.  Depression is aweful.  My mother suffers from severe bouts of depression and I just hate seeing her like that. If you need anything....I'm here for you. (((hugs)))

Thanks Jill!!!  Definitely helps to know I am not alone and that there are people who love & care about me and have suggestions on how to help.  A lot of what you talk about it a lot of what I am feeling.  I just don't know where I stand in life.  Some deep soul searching definitely on the list of things to do.