Yesterday
Well, I did post the other SOS message, which was a big step for me. I so love to help others, but absolutely hate to ask for help myself. I feel like I should know better... which I realize is just plain silly, but I can't help it sometimes! During one of my many shopping excursions in April, I apparently bought a magnet that says "Be Fearless". I found it yesterday as I was cleaning things up (and saying to myself "what the hell was I thinking?). I love this magnet. It sums up just about everything that I am jumping into at the moment. We are all fearless - we are facing so much every day and dealing with it - but we forget. I forget. And when I try to remind myself, the Town Meeting is there to argue with me until I'm convinced that it's all a big mistake and I'm nothing but a coward.
Still, I feel a bit stronger today, even after just one day (yesterday) of reaching out, not eating too much sugar and carbs, and trying to remain focused. I did not make time for exercise, which was a mistake. But I did get some fresh air and a good night's sleep. I will try again today.
I am driving to DC this afternoon and am really looking forward to the conference and seeing everyone. Thank you all for your support (again!) and faith in me... it means more than I could have imagined.
Mary D.
Pre op: 260 lbs, 5'3"
Goal reached 14 months later: 130 lbs
Regain over next 3.5 years to a high of: 166 lbs
Current weight: 135.8 lbs and heading back to 130 lbs!!
Good job. Fearless is a good theme. Try minmizing the Town Hall mentality to right versus wrong. It is your brain, your conscience, your heart. Town Hall makes it sound like you are out-numbered and out-gunned. You have the biggest cannon,....the ability to make the choice. Satan has the ability to bruise our heel but we have the ability to crush his head,..if we will so choose. But he is a really good salesman. I saw a really good bumper sticker once that read, When Satan reminds you or your past,...remind him of his future. You are the only one that can make right choices for you.
Go Mary! Go Mary! Go Mary!
Glad you are feeling better Mary. IT does take a lot to ask for help. I too struggle with that one. Some days I think my Town Meeting is a National Conference. Definitely a daily struggle & I am working on it. Will I see you on Saturday at dinner? I sure hope so.
Courtney 305/155/150/225 high/goal/low/current 
**The devil has put a penalty on all things we enjoy in life. Either we suffer in health or we suffer in soul or we get fat...Albert Einstein **
So glad to hear you are up again and fighting back -- don't let the "townies" get to you -- you're so much stronger than they are! I'm looking forward to seeing you this weekend at the conference. Drive safely. :)
Cindy 
5'9" 347/200/186/180
5'9" 347/200/186/180
....Helen Keller
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