Time to take responsibility!

Hi everyone! I havent posted in awhile and havent been reading the boards much in the last two weeks. I am about 8.5 months out and lost 75 lbs but I have not lost anything in the last two months. So yes that has discouraged me and that is why I havent been around. Bad thing about that is I really went off track, worse than the last time. I have let my sleeve down. I have not been watching what I am eating at all and I have not been logging my food on fitday either. I dont know if I am sabatoging myself or testing the sleeve. Testing how bad I can be before the sleeve stops to work. I have been pretty much grazing and not eating "meals" and just eating bad things. I have no problem exercising and still go to the Y 3 days a week on average and that may be the only reason why I havent gained any weight back.
I think I have in my mind that I can eat anything because I can't  eat as much as I used to therefore its ok. Another thing that I have been thinking about is I dont know how to be a regular sized person. what do I do after I lose the weight? as crazy as that might sound that has been a thought. I guess if I really think about it, the answer is to stay a regular sized person. I have to remember the sleeve is just a tool. A great tool but I have to use it for it to work.

well I am coming clean today. I am so close to my goal that it would be crazy to mess up now. I want to lose13 lbs by Christmas, 35 total to my goal of 175 lbs. To be there at 1 year would be fantasic and possible if I stay on track.

I will be going back to full liquids for a day or two then back to basics.

I feel better now that I let the cat out of the bag. I can no longer lie to myself.  My weight, well not my wight but my EATING will always be a ifetime struggle of mine. Im just glad to know that I do have a tool to help me and if I use it I will be the person I want to see in the mirror.

thanks for listening!

Andrea,

Your story sounds like it could be anyone of ours presently and even in months to come.  I am only 3 months out and find myself slipping back into old habits but the sleeve gives me the strength to get right back on track. 

You remind us all that there will be struggles and strenght in our journey.   Thanks for sharing and let us know how those 2 days on liquids go for you!!!

That is another reason I posted this today, not just for myself but to let newbies know of what struggles could lie ahead of them.
Old habits die hard!

I WILL get back on track!
thanks for your post.

Hello Andrea,

I'm not gong to beat you up but I'm not gonna hold your hand and treat you like a baby either...you paid alot of money for your VSG and made a commitment to figuring out what YOUR food issues are.  It is time to take action and get going down that right path again!  You have taken a great first step by publicly 'outing' yourself, now you have to follow through.  If you are not attending a local wls support group, I encourage you to find one, even if they are mostly LapBanders or RNYers, it does help!  AND, fill up on water and solid proteins...you truly will have no room for CRAP!!!  Those bad carbs and slippery foods just go down too easy sometimes, so you need to stay FULL.

  I'm glad you didn't just stay in hiding and follow the slippery slope where it tried to take you!

thanks! I needed to hear it like it is!!!

Hi, Andrea.
I'm sorry for what you've been going through. I applaud you for your courage in posting. Your going on full liquids for a day or two is a step in the right direction. You know what you did before, that worked, so begin to incorporate those things in your lifestyle once more.
You didn't quit exercising, so that tells me that you don't want to regain the weight. You've had your little "fling,"  so now it's time to get back on track, which you realize. 
You've begun to do some good soul-searching, as to why this happened in the first place. I'd encourage you to journal about it and see what comes up.
I'm sure you'll be posting soon about how you lost those 13 lbs. by Christmas.
Blessings,
Mary

P.S. Be sure to save this post, so when I'm post-op and going through the same thing, you can send it to me. :)

I'm having surgery next week 11/12 and it is good to hear your story so I am clear that this is not my license to eat whatever I want cause it will be a smaller portion but to continue to carefully manage my food intake and only splurge on special occasions.  Thanks for your post!

thanks, that is the message I wanted to send!
Best wishes for a great surgery and recovery!!!

Thanks, will do!

Girl, that could have been my post..I was so close to giving up because I gave in to crap foods and it led to wanting more and more. I only lost 5 lbs the whole month of October and I was so depressed. I am back on the wagon and have totally gotten rid of all chocolate candy within 50 feet of my space :-). I just started that on Monday and I have finally lost another lb. so I see it working! You don't have much to lose and I am sure you are happy where you are maybe? Do what makes you feel good about yourself!