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Thanks Everyone. You too TerriJ...it's not you being hard on me its you giving your best advise.

I just had a come apart last night. Earlier in the day I was feeling great. For a little bit yesterday I had a moment when I forgot I was not eating. I thought...wow maybe I am adjusting.

Anyway I just woke up but right now I feel good!

I am glad you feel good today. I want to say therapy has been good for me. I never really was an emotional eater but I ate WAY too much and bad foods. I started therapy for some other issues and even though I don't mourn food it's been helpful to talk through my body dysmorphia issues. Good luck!!! 

I am glad you feel good today. I want to say therapy has been good for me. I never really was an emotional eater but I ate WAY too much and bad foods. I started therapy for some other issues and even though I don't mourn food it's been helpful to talk through my body dysmorphia issues. Good luck!!!

I know exactly how you feel. I still feel that way, sometimes.

I wish I had an answer for you but I don't.

for me, anyway, I'm sure it's worth it.

 I was addicted to food. it was all I thought of all day long. What was I gonna eat next, whats in the house that I can get??? Some times I would want something, not knowing what is was. I would eat all day trying to find that one food that "got it" nothing ever did and I would be sick. Oh mind you not enough to throw up but sick, and angry with my self too. Sometimes I would cry as I shoved mindlessly anything I could find. Oh and portions??? If I had a 1 lb bag of candy, thats how much I would eat, my mind wouldn't rest till it was all gone. Well I'm here to tell you that those days are gone. From the time I woke up from the surgery I have been free from cravings (except sometimes for dill pickles...go figure) At about a month out I was working and realized I wasn't thinking about food.Do you have any idea how freeing that is? Actually its a chore I HAVE to do. I still don't really get hungry and have to remind myself to eat. Now that doesn't happen to everybody, but a big majority it does. So I am hoping it happens for you. Even if it doesn't your cravings will lessen, and most of them will be head hunger. You can do this. Don't let anyone change your mind, you have researched or you wouldn't be on this board. You had to work to find us. YOu can work this tool. You just have to want it badly enough. By the time you get in your 70 to 90 grams of protein a day, 64 oz of fluids. You won't have time or room for those bad carbs. You have to be tough with yourself, I think you underestimate your strength. You want WLS its not a decision made lightly, something drove you too it. Trust yourself.

I just weighed and have only lost 1 pound since Tuesday. I have not ate anything. Only jello one time and it was as big as my thumb.

 Are you telling me your not doing your protein drinks? If you are doing your protein drink liquid diet pre surgery and you have only lost 1 lb since tuesday, you really need this surgery. Cause you couldn't do it on your own and thats the proof.

Yea Tuesday I weighed which was the 1st week since I started preop. I lost 15 pounds.
So today I just now weighed again and have only lost 1 pound.
Since Tuesday I had 3 protein shakes and some water. Nothing else. Well the spoon or so of jello.

Marshall, I am glad to see your feeling better. I think we all have those " What the HELL did I do to myself" moments. We are all addicts. It will get easier, I promise and I also promise you will have very bad moments again and again, but they will become less and less and you WILL take off the weight.



I agree with others. I had to put my scale away and weight once a month. This is the first time I have weighed myself weekly and that is only because I am adding back some carbs now to follow maintance and I have to see where it all leads. I am again in experimental mode, but once I get the hang of what I can keep eating here on maintance, I will go back to only weighting once a month.

So many variables change our weight from day to day, it can be anything that does not make it move. IF you know your being on schedule,don't sweat the petty things sweetie.

When you want to scream, come in here and post. We're here for you.



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