Did you ever want a divorce from your sleeve?
I'm only 4 1/2 months out but without my precious sleeve there's no way on God's green Earth that I'd be coaching my 9 year olds soccer team. Just for the sake of that one memory with my kid in time it was worth it. When I went to see my surgeon for the first time November 13th I had already lost some weight and was 287 pounds. I would have never coached at the weight. I could barely tie my shoes at 315!
My sleeve makes me feel like a girl, I eat so much less than I used to, I dont' feel like a glutton anymore. Sure I certainly have to learn to eat slower and slower but I'm getting there.
I feel like my sleeeve is keeping me from a real divorce, I was so very miserable before, it was hard on my husband.
I wished I could have had a temporary separation from my tiny tummy so I could gorge myself and eat away my feelings.
Thank goodness I couldn't and can't. It was really bizarre though...I was having a breakdown and my husband asked what he could do for me.
I told him to get me my old stomach back, order a large pizza and get 2 big bags of chips and let me go to town. It's defintely what I would have done before my VSG if this had happened then.
I didn't really want that...it was just me not knowing how to deal with my emotions when I had always used food before.
I'm not eating like a normal person yet, since my portions are so small, but I'm no longer a glutton. I'm in love with my sleeve and have no intention of considering divorce now or in the future. This honeymoon will last forever.
I must say that before surgery, I wondered how I would deal with eating such small amounts. It was hard to wrap my mind around the concept. But since surgery, it's easy.
I've dealt with 2 pot luck luncheons at work since surgery, a wedding reception, and 3 large family get-togethers with lots of food at all. I did great and it didn't bother me to not eat all of those foods. I chose the foods I really wanted. Just a bite or 2 of each. I ate my protein first, then a bite of each of the other chosen foods. I was "stuffed" and didn't feel at all like I missed out.
I'm two months out and I'm a very slow loser. I had the surgery because my metabolism is shot from 50 years of yo-yo dieting. I LOVE my Sleeve and the freedom it gives me. While I may be losing slower than most on this forum, I'm losing. I'm down almost three pant sizes from 22/24 to just about 16. Tops were 2x and now the 1x is getting too big. I had to figure out what works for me to get the weight loss moving a little faster. Exercise 1 hour a day, calories 600 a day with carbs under 20 ( I don't do net carbs), and get in 7 hours of sleep a night.
What don't I love? That my hair is starting to come out at 2 months post-op.
I love the small portions on my plate. I love how easy it is to thaw a few shrimp for dinner. I love that my thighs aren't always rubbing together. I love that I can tie my shoes easily. I love that I can pull my feet up on the chair I'm sitting on. I love that my feet are getting smaller as well. I love that my ankle that was operated on 2 years ago is singing Sleeve praises. I love that I want to get up and move. I love that I get to wear smaller clothes. I love that I'm not always the biggest person in the room.
I love knowing that if I respect my Sleeve, that I have a great shot at getting to goal and staying there. That's pretty cool for a 59 year old who's been overweight for 52 years.
Divorce? No freakin way!
HW: 249 SW: 229 GW: 149 Age: 63 - Body by Sauceda - 12/2011